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Why Can't We All Just Get Along?
WHO: Nathaniel, Norrington, Anders, and Cade
WHAT: Minor investigation regarding a spat at the healing tents.
WHEN: After Cade's last open post
WHERE: Skyhold/Camp Shady
NOTES: Probably aspirin abuse from the superior officers who have to do this. Also, Cade and Anders are just walking trigger warnings.
WHAT: Minor investigation regarding a spat at the healing tents.
WHEN: After Cade's last open post
WHERE: Skyhold/Camp Shady
NOTES: Probably aspirin abuse from the superior officers who have to do this. Also, Cade and Anders are just walking trigger warnings.
[actual video of Nathaniel]
Cade - Courtyard
"Ser Cade. It's a pleasure. I am Senior Warden Nathaniel Howe."
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When the fateful moment finally arrives, he comes over to the pair, very mindfully not slinking, since he knows they hate that. So he stands straight, and though he still can't bring himself to make eye contact, he does take Nate's hand to shake it.
"Warden Howe," he timidly replies.
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He wasn't about to have this turn into a 'he is HIDING SOMETHING' interrogation. Just the facts, if you please.
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"I understand you were in the healing tents recently," he says gently. "Are you feeling better?"
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"Yes," he says quietly, "thank you." He's going to be thrown in the dungeon or killed or maybe both.
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"Can you tell me what happened between you and Anders? Starting with walking away from your tent."
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"He came over and told me to go back. And um." At this Cade goes red, knowing he's pretty obviously int he wrong here. "...I wouldn't. Because he's..." He clamps his mouth shut and rubs the back of his neck, glancing furtively between Norrington and Howe. Neither of them was in Kirkwall, neither understands the exact thought process of being told what to do by the person who was, at least superficially, responsible for what has turned into years of intrinsic terror.
"I... think I... started to go back?" he continues, his voice lowering; he had panicked, which often means he blanks out, and this time is no exception. "...but I fell, and..." He winces. Everything after this is jumbled shouting and blind fear, anger, something in between.
"Someone-- that chantry brother-- arrived and gave me his crutch. And then I went back." His shoulders hunch slightly. As usual, Cade hardly comes out looking like the innocent party. But if there's one hill he'll die on, it's having nothing to do with That Mage.
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"Anders said you threatened to kill him. Is that true?"
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"As the Knight-Commander says. Try to remember everything you can. What else happened?"
He doesn't want to ask if Anders cast magic on him. He doesn't want to put any accusations into that head that aren't already there.
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"I think he tried to touch me," he says, and gives a full-body shudder, wincing. It's not the kind of reaction one tends to have to potential violence; it's more of revulsion than of fear.
"If he has to be here," he says to the ground, "I don't want him anywhere near me." Anders killed a Grand Cleric, destroyed a sacred place, and stands tall and strong and openly himself as though unaffected. Cade's duties at the time were to capture and kill maleficarum, a job description that, at some point between then and now, not only went away but became a punishable offense. He can be forced to tolerate said maleficar in his proximity, but will never accept or work with him.
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He leveled a firm gaze, "We're all in this together. We need to start acting like it here, as well."
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He nods nonetheless, lowering his head to rest it in his hands, trying to slow his breathing and his pounding heartbeat.
There are times when Cade swears he can still smell the smoke, the ozone, the human viscera, the hideous olfactory cocktail of every atrocity committed that night. It paralyzes him, freezes his blood in his veins, and he knows beyond certainty that there will be no tomorrow, and if there is, it will be horrible.
But he's able to maintain his attention, for now. He doesn't want to talk about this anymore, doesn't want to hear Anders' name again or be reminded of his existence. Perhaps he's alone in this. Perhaps it didn't happen like that at all, and he's been crazier than anyone initially thought.
Either way, his one defense is to do as he's told. So he just nods to Norrington with a quiet "yes, ser," hoping with all his might that this is the end of the discussion.
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"The Maker asks too much of us, Cade. Every single day, every single moment. That you still go to mages ... says a lot about you, and your faith in Andraste's word that magic is meant to serve man. You will not go to Anders - well. Like I said, it is a choice. You don't have to go to him, ever again, and you will not be censured for it."
He lifted a finger, "But - you threatened to kill him. For the sake of one and all - you are going to need to apologize for that. Once that is done ... "
Now here, he gives Nathaniel a pointed look, "Then Anders will apologize for overreacting himself. We need speak no further about it, after that. Wait here, for my return."
He lifted his chin, and looked directly at Nathaniel, "Shall we?"
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He nods again, a bit sulkily, but with another "yes, ser" to indicate that he understands and isn't going to put up a fight.