[CLOSED] Dwarf business.
WHO: Kit + Yngvi
WHAT: A meeting between two fellows at the Blooming Rose--er, not like that.
WHEN: Some time in early August.
WHERE: The Blooming Rose
NOTES: Dwarf shenanigans, probably foul language; will update if anything comes up.
WHAT: A meeting between two fellows at the Blooming Rose--er, not like that.
WHEN: Some time in early August.
WHERE: The Blooming Rose
NOTES: Dwarf shenanigans, probably foul language; will update if anything comes up.
LATE EVENING AT THE BLOOMING ROSE
Kit is no blushing virgin, but it still feels a little bit strange for him to open the door to Kirkwall's Hightown brothel and see himself inside. In the Deep Roads, there was no room for modesty when it came to dressing and washing and looking after oneself in the company of others, so it's not the lack of clothes on some of the hosts that gives him pause. He's not sure what it is, exactly. But in the main parlor, guests and hosts alike all appear to be enjoying themselves, and in varying states of inebriation.
There aren't many dwarves present at this establishment--at least, none that he can see just yet--and so he goes to find a seat at the bar to enjoy a smoke, and wait.
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"How's it goin' mate?" Easy, natural, casual, not at all rehearsed or anything like that what are you talking about he wasn't dropping lines in the mirror to make sure he sounded like a person and that his face moved like a face should move as he drops into a seat. Less dwarf than Kit might be expecting. Maybe something passingly familiar about Kit to him but Yngvi hasn't survived to this point without keeping sharp. "This is where you get good drinks, isn't it madam?"
The serving girl smiles, probably because she has to, but Yngvi'll tip well regardless.
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"Hey, glad to defer to your expertise, salroka," he replies, takes a drag off his cigarette, and then twists some in his seat so he's facing his new drinking companion.
"I believe you said something about good Avvar shit when we were planning this little excursion. So c'mon," he adds, giving an idle flick of one hand, "let's get drinking."
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That word catches him. Sometimes he's good enough to get his face to just go blank, usually he smiles like it's all water off a duck's back but he jumps hard enough his knee smacks off the table. Hard. "Dunno what the fuck that means. Ain't from them parts, folk don't speak that where I'm from." It's not a good lie because clearly he does know what it means but that's a common enough word, even humans know that one. He just doesn't want more of it. Knows he can't school his face right if he has to hear dwarven because people don't know he speaks it, people don't even know he speaks and understands Orlesian fluently.
"Yeah, right, fun thing 'bout when your boss lived here before and he was a pretty popular fixture, so long as you order somethin'," and he does that, tips generously because Einar didn't raise a fool, and Yngvi knows what folk get paid, and she's an elven girl so who knows what her life is, and because he's asked for an empty mug each to go along with it, he whips out a decent sized flask. "They don't mind much if you bring your own. This is some honey mead stuff? Dunno they drink some rank shite too but this is good. Blows the tits off some people."
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"Dunno they drink some rank shite too but this is good. Blows the tits off some people."
"Here's hoping I'm not 'some people' or this is going to be a weird night out." He smiles his thanks at the serving girl, offering her out a few more coppers for her trouble, then holds out his flask to Yngvi to have his mug filled. Once that's done, he brings the stuff up to give it a curious sniff, then swallows down a generous mouthful. ...It's potent stuff, but he's definitely tasted stronger. No weird shit going down in the Blooming Rose tonight.
"So where'd you get this stuff anyway? You spend much time down in the Frostbacks?" Steering the conversation away from dwarven things, at least for now.
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"Been all over since I left here, well, not Tevinter because who wants to go to Tevinter," plenty of dwarves do because it's a good life if you're in deep with the right people but Yngvi's not and Tevinter's an abhorrent sort of place, "and not Qunari places because that'd be a really stupid idea. Boneflayers leader who started it before he passed was part-Avvar. Made us somethin' like kin? Guest rite stuff in his hold and a few others."
Nearly a year. Nearly a year since Asher passed and back here for it, so far from any sort of mountain and Avvar have a weird view of time but he'll need to mark it. Probably. Part of him wants to but more of him is blindsided by just how close it is suddenly as he takes a decent swig, enjoying the burn. "Gave me and Gunnar the last name so we'd fit in and it'd sound like some of their hold names do, Congealedinagutterson, like, because it's where we're from, says how we came about y'know?" Can you hear that Yngvi is fond, that Yngvi still clings really tight to that even now the way a child accustomed to having nothing clutches to anything he gets because he might not get things ever again, clings tight enough that they'll need to rip it away from him and think it's not worth the effort of fighting him for it.
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He doesn't think Yngvi's leader was at all cut from the same cloth as Beraht; maybe more like Nolan, except with less of a stick up his ass, just based on Yngvi's obvious affection for the unknown man. The parallel is there, but it's thin and brittle. Kit takes another swallow of mead and gathers his thoughts.
"Gunnar," he says and scratches one of the grey patches in his short, neatly kept beard. "That your brother?" The name seems to tug at something in his memory, but he can't place why.
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"Carta brother," as if it answers everything because are they brothers by blood, brothers in the Carta sense, or is it both? Best to keep people guessing because he always answers Carta brother with that look in his eye. "There were a bunch of us but we ate the rest, me an' him from our sort of lot 'bout that age were the best of 'em so we got to stick around, get into all sorts of scrapes. He's...in Nevarra? Was last I heard from him. D'you meet him on your travels? I'm the charming and handsome one out the two of us, he just got all the weird stuff."
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"Yeah, you're all right," Kit replies with an easy grin, clearly teasing, and taps the excess ash off his cigarette before taking another puff. Blowing out the smoke, he shakes his head and then scratches the edge of one eyebrow, pensive. "Don't think I met him--not in Nevarra, at least, never went there when I ran with mercenary companies. Might've gone under it though when I was still with the Legion." Not that a Legionnaire ever really leaves the Legion; it follows you, it stays in your blood, even if you leave the Deep Roads behind.
Kit considers Yngvi for a brief moment through the smoke; the kid's radiating nervous energy like heat from a bonfire, and the drink doesn't seem to be putting him at ease at all. He considers a different approach.
"So you ate your other brothers and sisters, huh?" he remarks, takes another gulp from his mead, and nods his head as though this seems like a perfectly reasonable and plausible thing to have done in Yngvi's situation. "I don't know if I had any brothers or sisters growing up in Dust Town; maybe I did the same thing." He's kidding, but there's a bit of sadness to his joke that's impossible to miss.
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A swig of his drink and he has another thing to add as if remembering. "Would say that if you go for a drink in Nevarra? Don't get into contests with randoms or you wake up a Reaver three days later," that's a true story, it's one of the two stories people tend to know about the former leader of the Boneflayers after all, "but the corpse perfume? Every vintage is a fine one."
If the Inquisition will not make him foreign affairs correspondent or their cultural affairs correspondent then he will be their resident sommelier.
"Hate sayin' it but if you don't remember? There's a good chance you did, like, people are frogs, and life is a goose, and goose got sharp beaks with teeth and appetites." Dusters got even less than they do in Darktown, tighter margins. "Though you didn't have to fight the doglords for the food in your mouths is all." Thats's not a thing Yngvi would admit to people but he recognises that tone, and Kit's the life Yngvi might've been if life had been different so in the Blooming Rose on a busy enough night it feels safe enough. (As if he's ever known anything different to safe enough.)
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The comparing or ranking of one kind of suffering to another has never sat well with Kit, and his heart twinges with some pain when he hears Yngvi do it. But he doesn't take him to task over it, or over the pejorative word for the Ferelden refugees, because there's a vulnerability, an honesty in that confession that can be felt past the nervous energy pervading everything else the young man says.
He takes another quick drag off his smoke and taps the ash off again; a vulnerability in exchange for a vulnerability, then. "I didn't have brothers or sisters, but there were these other dusters I ran with," he remembers, smiling wistfully. "Ended up part of Beraht and Jarvia's outfit, so it turned out about as you'd expect. But we kept each other going; you blow off the dust to find the vein of silver, right?"
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"Weren't she a right fruitcake that one? Wasn't there for doin' much with her, been below for some shit, I mean trade happens like it just poofs outta thin air or some shite but that one? Turned the air blue the old men and women did and if I'm sayin' that?" Yngvi makes a face, shaking his head because things had kind of settled down when there'd been less Jarvia to deal with, things had been less tense and nervy after the old folks didn't come back pissed-off and grumbling after whatever deals went down. "Always wondered, d'you have to blow Darkspawn shit off the silver? Like, bloke to bloke, dwarf to dwarf, is that a thing?"
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"Man, wouldn't that be a treat," he says, chuckling. "No, it's like nug shit and vomit stink--sticks to everything like a nasty film. I think it might be worse than the darkspawn blood, and I've been up close and personal with that enough times to know."
He gives Yngvi a wry look and asks, clearly kidding, "Why, you looking to join the Legion? 'Cause I gotta say, this?" And here he holds up his tankard of sweet mead, eyebrows raised dubiously. "Gonna be hard to come by down in the deep, salroka."
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"I've got twenty nugs, you can keep nugs clean, s'not hard, slippery when wet but they like a bit of dust to scrabble around in, think it's good for them up here? All pale and pasty? Don't fancy a nug all burnt up, might make people think they're sausages more than usual." Yngvi's quiet as he pours, considering that because they're going to be in Kirkwall for winter so he'll need to make some arrangemets in case people get peckish, not one hand is laid upon his nugs with hungry intent or the hand comes off.
This time he can ignore the salroka, maybe it's a habit like how he says mate when he doesn't even mean it because that's reflexive, it's punctuation and pause and a word to fill up space between the rest of the words. "Like it up here and I'm gettin' three wages so absolutely not I'm not doin' that fun as it'd be to see who'd show up to my funeral." Fucking no one Yngvi you haven't just been burning bridges you've been tossing qunari explosives at them and salting whatever you can find. "Avvar trade with Orzammar though, they're stupid and just get boring shit or too stubborn to ask for real good booze that does more than get you drunk, this is a thing you can sit back and enjoy when you're camping after a long day of tramping from one place to another or getting paid by some rich ponce to do whatever thing they can't be arsed dealing with."
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He rolls himself another cigarette, lights it, and takes a puff while listening to his new friend talk, not interrupting, just listening. After he’s gone quiet, after they’ve had a second or two to let silence fill the air between them rather than the rapid-fire of Yngvi’s words, Kit gives him a pensive look.
“I feel like I made you angry,” he says simply. “When we chatted through that sending crystal, I mean.” He taps the ashes off the end of the cigarette, considering it instead of Yngvi. “You sounded pretty mad.”
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Still, he's got two boltholes and one belonging to his lady with her estate and title, much more than most if his life and luck sour.
Watching Kit, he hides the face he makes best he can behind his mug of mead as he thinks on that longer than he wants to. It all comes bubbling up again, all the things he tried to push down when he was getting himsel ready in his lady's house in front of the mirror. "'s life. Lot of things goin' on here, the whole back here thing, bein' a dwarf here thing, or just bein' a dwarf yeah?" If this was a world where they had bottles and labels on them, Yngvi's wound be shredded but as it is he settles for tracing the pattern on the tankard, worn smooth in places by time and too many other hands passing over it. "Good way to find out what friends you got." Or the friends you don't actually have as the case was for him.
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He isn’t so sure it is; plenty of topsiders don’t get it, won’t ever get it, much though they try. But if their hearts are in the right place, if they come at this shit in good faith and not looking for a quarrel--
Kit isn’t looking for a quarrel.
He takes another drag off his cigarette and leans his large forearms against the countertop. Around them, the lazy, indolent chatter of the patrons and workers of the Rose around them carries on; there’s nothing of note happening to really warrant a distraction for either of them. “I know you don’t know me from any other old duster come up from Orzammar,” he admits and glances Yngvi’s way, “but I want to be your friend. If you’re in the market for making new ones. What do you say to that?”
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"Just cause you helped me out as a kid don't mean you owe me shit," Yngvi sniffs, not as confident in this as he'd like but he's right, he has to be right. Why else would he care? Everything else has come back since he's back so why not this one too?
He continues, sitting up straighter from his slouch because that's what Asher would have done, what his lady would do. "I'm a big boy now, don't need to be mates with me because you feel sorry for the whelp you helped."
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“What?” If he looks blindsided by Yngvi’s response, it’s because he is. Kit takes the cigarette out from between his lips and blows the smoke off to the side, then returns his full attention to Yngvi; he missed something here, that much is obvious, but he can’t figure out where he went awry. And either Yngvi is mistaking him for someone else, or Kit has just traipsed right into uneven ground without the right boots on.
“I’m--sorry--” he starts, brows drawing together in a deep furrow, “--I don’t remember…” His words taper off into baffled silence, and he looks back at Yngvi with both regret and apology in his eyes. His response falls far short of the mark, but it’s all he has to offer in the moment, as caught flat footed as he is.
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They all looked the same then, what's one more face in the dark, in the dirt, how many faces did Kit see all his life before the Legion and after, just as hollow in the same places, the feral starveling fire in the eyes.
"There were humans and they had shivs, me and Gunnar were smaller," he's insistent, he remembers this, he remembers this so clearly now and why is it so important that Kit does, why does he care, he doesn't, he shouldn't, this is more than half his life ago. "You stopped them. It was you, I fuckin' know it was you."
Just two faces that passed you by, not even a footnote in your life, that's it, that's always the sum of it Yngvi.
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It had felt good to put them face down in the dirt and teach them a thing or two about backing the fuck off. He hadn't even needed to use either of the axes that he'd carried with him since he was about the age of those two boys, if not younger--
Kit stares back at Yngvi in dumbfounded silence, the slow light of recognition kindling in his eyes.
"...you got taller," is his stupid response, along with a hesitant, wondering sort of smile. He shakes his head in disbelief, reaches for his cigarette.
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Yngvi or Gunnar or both of them must've done it then. He still remembers it. Flashes here and there (maybe he'd remember more if he dreamt, that's something he's noticed living around humans and elves and elfbloods as long as he has) of how sharp the blades had been and the tang of his blood in his mouth when he'd been grabbed hard enough that he'd bitten his tongue, Gunnar's sweat that even then had the acrid layer of whatever he'd been working on with the alchemists.
And then another dwarf, not one of theirs--
The laugh chokes out of him, like he's back in the Vauquelin estate in front of one of his lady's mirrors (if only, if only). "Not much. Fucked up royally then, missed a few dinners for that." Missed a lot of dinners because even an investment needs some lean periods because it has to be reminded that it isn't the only one.
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"Yngvi," he starts to say, lifts a hand as though to brace a hand on his shoulder like he would a son, a nephew, but he stops himself, scratches at his short beard instead. At last he drops his hand to his cigarette again, picks it up, and takes a drag from it. "Shit, I don't even know what to say."
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"What's there to say?" It's a long time ago now (not that long ago though, Kit one of the few people who could hazard a fairly accurate guess at his age) so he shoves down whatever he's feeling, puts on a smile he practiced enough that it's good, better than good, looks right convincing. "Grew up, didn't get m'self killed. Had plenty to say on the crystal I think."
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At that Kit smiles again, a warmer grin that shows some white teeth. "Yeah, you said a fair bit," he agrees. He tries not to, but he ends up going a bit quiet again, considering the young man who sits at the table with him with new eyes. It's rare for him to cross paths again with the people he's helped throughout his life--mostly because he does what he can to put some distance between them. Better them only know that he helped them once, rather than know him any better than that. (Before he can let them down.)
He digs his heels in against the instinct to bolt, turns his slight fidgeting instead to fiddling with his cigarette. "For what it's worth," he says, "I think you've done real good for yourself."
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Not knowing what to do with this information because when did another dwarf last tell him that? Has another dwarf ever said that without a qualifier? Wasn't there always something about improving himself. About how he could do it better, faster, quieter, no unbridled praise in the Carta and he can feel his cheeks heat in a way he will absolutely blame on the drink if he's called out on it. "Yeah you say that, don't know 'bout all the other shit and you-- I mean shit, Legion to this? How'd that even work? Legion to Darktown to wherever you went to now." The deflection is a little desperate, mead sloshing over his hand as he refills his drink but this is embarrassing, what does he do with those words?
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"I left the Legion," he replies, tone carefully neutral. Then, "Well, I didn't leave--no one ever really leaves, it stays with you--" He pats his chest over his heart. "But I couldn't stay down there, after the Blight. Couldn't stay away, either; I went back, time to time, but not for long." He goes quiet then, studying the end of his cigarette; there's obviously more to say about what led him to the Inquisition, but he seems suddenly unsure of how to say any of it.
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Yngvi had been a kid who hadn't cared much more beyond making sure he had food in his belly when he'd met Kit, he certainly hadn't been going to ask after his life story back then but this...this is something. Something he knows not personally but about going back and not being able to stay and that murky strange business.
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It's not that he's avoiding answering the question; Kit's deft enough at deflecting questions when he doesn't want to answer them. It's the sheer enormity of the reason, the gravity of his own mistakes--his crime--that makes him stop short before he can even begin speak it. Like being at the bottom of the mountain and looking up.
"We came up," he says, after a long spell of silence, "to fight the Blight. Went to Denerim, saw that mess." He waves a hand idly; for a second or two, he struggles to find his words, and there's an odd little smile at the corner of his mouth when he speaks. "I saw so many surface dwarves there, you know. They had good lives, got to spend their days in the sunshine--what difference did it make to them if some deep lords thought they'd lost their stone sense? What's the shame in being casteless up here when you've got the chance for so much?
"And it got me thinking--it made me think, if my folks had just come up here when I was a little thing--if the other dusters had just come up here, instead of..." He trails off there, jaw clenching, then unclenching.
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Still, doesn't change that he doesn't like hearing about it much but he asked so he listens.
"Been to Denerim after that, full of cheap tat," Yngvi proclaims because that's probably helpful yeah? Can't let Kit think Denerim is the be-all, end-all, Denerim isn't all sunshine. (Still shame in being casteless, live long enough up here and stay put in a place and there are those who carry it all on their back like the Dalish do, asking ancestors permission to sneeze.) "Spend their days in the rain too, like, s'all sort of balanced out and you got taxes and all, someone's takin' a cut."
Good life, what the hell is that, how do you even measure a good life? He squints, tips his head to examine Kit, wonders how someone can live the life he has and see a good life instead of maybe just a better life.
Yngvi knows the other uncomfortable truth though. "How does a demon get into the world, well a mage has to go make a certain sort of deal usually it's a whole nasty business and that's usually how a duster gets their family up to the surface but a demon deal ends a bit quicker than a dwarf one."
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"Yeah," Kit replies, and he agrees, with all of it. No, maybe 'good' wasn't the right word, maybe 'better' was... well, better. Maybe trying to put the mass of feeling and memory that led to his departure from the Legion into words was the mistake. He can feel the pressure of Yngvi's scrutinizing gaze on the side of his face, and while he doesn't exactly wince under it, he does reach for his cigarette again, only to discover that it's finally burnt out and there's nothing left of it. He mashes the cherry out in the ash tray.
"Maybe I just didn't want to die for fucking Orzammar twice."
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Yngvi wouldn't want to die for Orzammar once. Wouldn't want to die for a place once. Not even Kirkwall (especially not Kirkwall because as much as he loves it, what has it ever actually done for him really?) but maybe there's a different pride or something similar you get if you belong to a place. Humans with their home countries. Elves for the home they don't have. Dwarves that did come from down there.
So his question is...awkward. It shows on his face because he's young and not some practiced honeyed bard, morbidly curious about dying for somewhere. Not for people (his lady who he'd open a vein for, the Boneflayers and Aura Hardie who he'd lay his life down for, Wren who wouldn't let him probably but who he'd still fight for) and some bigger more complicated things that he thinks matter more than home. Things that have gotten him in arguments lately. "Was it really for Orzammar?"
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Once he's done with it (for the moment, anyway), he sets it down and says, "If I died for anyone, it was for the Legionnaires."
Suddenly self-conscious over how much of himself he's been pouring into this conversation, he glances at Yngvi again wearing a chagrined expression. "This is probably a lot more about some old guy than you ever wanted to know, huh?" he says, his tone and expression self-deprecating out of sudden nervousness.
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It's a subtle distinction but he finds himself nodding before he finds his voice. "Yeah, I get that. Like, I'd do that for the Boneflayers and there's a few folk I'd do a lot for. Open a vein. No questions." See, Yngvi can do dwarf humour too.
(Only he doesn't mean those veins, he means his, without hesitation, without thinking, without flinching, he'd do it and wouldn't regret it.)
"Listen, you could be Orlesian or a doglord," he teases with a big grin, leaning over to give Kit a shove, "'sides you're not old. You'd be fuckin' dead if you were."
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(He likes to wish that they died for him, for the Legion, rather than for Orzammar. It's the only way he can stomach knowing that they're still dead down there.)
His thoughts are leagues away when Yngvi gives him that shove, and he almost sloshes his mead out of his mug when he catches himself on the table. He turns to look at Yngvi in surprise, only to find that big, teasing grin on his face, and he instantly finds himself slowly but surely smiling in return; the kid has an infectious smile, if no one has told him that before.
"'sides you're not old. You'd be fuckin' dead if you were."
That makes him laugh, warm and genuine. "Yeah? I can't be alive and old at the same time, huh? Guess that makes me a spring nug like you in that case." Now if only his knees would agree with him.
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Nah. Don't get to be old and alive. Not if they're the kind that pick up the weapons and do the work.
Besides, Yngvi's seen old people and he takes a drink, pulls a face. "I'd hate bein' old. Sounds proper shit."