I am quite grown, Stella, and you know this.

[ He snorts a soft laugh, reaching up to trace her cheek gently with his fingers. Her smiles are rare and sweet things- something she should do more often without feeling quite so wary of them. ]

I want this because I miss it. Or... I think I miss it. So long it's been since I last-

Since I ever...

I do not know how it feels for there to be sentiment and meaning.