The Harrowing is...a tradition. Some might call it outdated or unnecessary. [Mostly mages, in truth.] It is a test which proves that apprentices are strong enough, in will, in fortitude, to be trusted with their skills within the Circle.

[So what must it mean to the apprentices who haven't completed one? No wonder she muses on being a true mage.] What you speak of are two different concepts. There is the passing of the test. The technical title bestowed on you. But for confidence, for self-respect, those do come with patience and time and how you act, how you use your powers.

Perhaps you could speak with those in the mage council of this? If not going through a Harrowing troubles you so.