"Instinct... I guess. When I tried to deny what I was and fight it then I was never in control. The Wolf part was some separate monster. When I embraced it, though, when I accepted that I am the Wolf? Then when I change I'm still Ruby. But the Wolf is always there, too. It's just another part of my nature. Like... like when someone gets cranky or when they laugh. The possibility is always there?" A shake of her head. "I'm not so good at this. I can let the Wolf out any time, and I'm still me when I do. The Wolf part of me is... I wouldn't be me if I hadn't realised we're the same thing."

But she makes a face, still unsatisfied with her explanation. "I think I'm making this worse."