He's mulling over the first part when Cole makes his offer, and Anders shakes his head quickly.
"What? No. No, I don't want to forget. I don't want to be made to forget. I've had quite enough of that from Justice, gaps in my memory where I've done things." And sometimes they hadn't been good things. The fear that came from having yet another hole gets forced down as he takes a breath. What's the right thing to do here?
"She might," he says after a beat. "She might say no. That's the difficulty with going through the official channels. But she also might say yes, and good could come out of it."
Anders leans forward and rests his elbows on his knees. "Also, if it's done through official channels, no one gets in trouble, and no one reacts with too much fear. It's an expected thing. There's a great deal of fear in this world, Cole. You know how it cripples as well as I do, likely better."
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"What? No. No, I don't want to forget. I don't want to be made to forget. I've had quite enough of that from Justice, gaps in my memory where I've done things." And sometimes they hadn't been good things. The fear that came from having yet another hole gets forced down as he takes a breath. What's the right thing to do here?
"She might," he says after a beat. "She might say no. That's the difficulty with going through the official channels. But she also might say yes, and good could come out of it."
Anders leans forward and rests his elbows on his knees. "Also, if it's done through official channels, no one gets in trouble, and no one reacts with too much fear. It's an expected thing. There's a great deal of fear in this world, Cole. You know how it cripples as well as I do, likely better."