Nate's hand is cradled to Anders' cheek once it's washed, pressed there.
"I only left because you seemed to be doing better. I should have stayed. I've more field experience than most of the healers here, more experience making do, improvising..."
Nate made it. Anders needs to remember that, but he'd been so afraid and so far away.
"I needed you to stay and you did, even though I wasn't there." One day he'll do the right thing, somehow. Probably by accident, seeing as how every time he tries to do right it goes wrong. How is he ever going to be worthy of Nate? Or live up to the faith Herc placed in him? They've both called him a good man, but as he presses a kiss to the back of Nate's hand and moves to the man's other shoulder and arm, Anders doesn't feel it.
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Nate's hand is cradled to Anders' cheek once it's washed, pressed there.
"I only left because you seemed to be doing better. I should have stayed. I've more field experience than most of the healers here, more experience making do, improvising..."
Nate made it. Anders needs to remember that, but he'd been so afraid and so far away.
"I needed you to stay and you did, even though I wasn't there." One day he'll do the right thing, somehow. Probably by accident, seeing as how every time he tries to do right it goes wrong. How is he ever going to be worthy of Nate? Or live up to the faith Herc placed in him? They've both called him a good man, but as he presses a kiss to the back of Nate's hand and moves to the man's other shoulder and arm, Anders doesn't feel it.