[ Christine has always striven to be strong willed, but to never let on how deep it ran. In her eyes, the Templars would use any excuse to make someone Tranquil. If they were a weak willed mage they wouldn't pass their Harrowing. Better make them Tranquil. If they were too strong willed, they would be rebellious and everyone saw how that turned out with the Circle in Ferelden. Better make them Tranquil. Christine has always walked along a tightrope, and Gjurd's words are another reminder of how she must keep her balance as she walks it. ]
I have seen more than I ever realized I would.
[ Her life was meant to be the Circle. If she rose through the ranks and became a trusted Enchanter, maybe one day she would have been allowed to travel for meetings, but that was really her only prospect. The world may be a scary, uncertain place for a mage, but she'd rather have the open air around her than four walls.
Reaching out, she takes Gjurd's hand between both of hers. She's beginning to feel guilty. This is only the second time she's seen him and both times she's dumped her emotional weight onto him. He's carried such a burden brilliantly, but it makes it seem like she's just using him for his advice. ]
I have doubts, but that is why I have Faith. She was drawn to me because of them, and I believe she can help me work through them. It will take time, but I do not doubt her. And I would like to spend more time here. Knowing I have the option is such a relief.
[ Christine has always wanted security; a chance to not constantly be looking over her shoulder. This offer feels like a very big deal. The Avvar seem like a closed group to lowlanders, but Asher's hold has been so welcoming and kind. If she had a place among them, she would do everything in her power to see the hold continue to thrive.
Her head lowers to look over their hands. ]
I am sorry our meetings have been filled with talk of sorrowful things. You are very good to me. I confess; most of the reason I am here is not to chase nuggalopes, but to see the hold and especially you again.
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I have seen more than I ever realized I would.
[ Her life was meant to be the Circle. If she rose through the ranks and became a trusted Enchanter, maybe one day she would have been allowed to travel for meetings, but that was really her only prospect. The world may be a scary, uncertain place for a mage, but she'd rather have the open air around her than four walls.
Reaching out, she takes Gjurd's hand between both of hers. She's beginning to feel guilty. This is only the second time she's seen him and both times she's dumped her emotional weight onto him. He's carried such a burden brilliantly, but it makes it seem like she's just using him for his advice. ]
I have doubts, but that is why I have Faith. She was drawn to me because of them, and I believe she can help me work through them. It will take time, but I do not doubt her. And I would like to spend more time here. Knowing I have the option is such a relief.
[ Christine has always wanted security; a chance to not constantly be looking over her shoulder. This offer feels like a very big deal. The Avvar seem like a closed group to lowlanders, but Asher's hold has been so welcoming and kind. If she had a place among them, she would do everything in her power to see the hold continue to thrive.
Her head lowers to look over their hands. ]
I am sorry our meetings have been filled with talk of sorrowful things. You are very good to me. I confess; most of the reason I am here is not to chase nuggalopes, but to see the hold and especially you again.