He looks back over his shoulder, reminded of Sigrun's rule and extending that thought to Kit.

"Sorry. I meant actual death. I... There was a time when my end was very certain. Matters were clear, and it was surprisingly relaxing. Possibly the most relaxing I've ever found something. I don't want to go back to a moment like that, but I knew I was going to die, it was deserved, and there was no doing anything about it."

Anders shrugs, turning back around now that the wrapping is finished. "The rest of life seems to be entirely lacking in answers. Or at least easy ones."

He grimaces after a beat. "I apologize. I'd say you'd caught me in a melancholy mood, but I think it's fairly standard of late."