She exhales, the breath puffing her cheeks as she considers.
"Well, for me specifically the sure-fire methods is: only fuck women. But I don't want to be limited, ya know? Sometimes--" Don't say sometimes you just want some good dick, Athessa, you can be a little more tactful than that. "Sometimes I wanna fuck men. So."
Shrugging, Athessa thinks back to the Maiden Tower, about Ciara and the other girls.
"The girls at the brothel told me that I needed to take control over what was done to me. That if I could... reenact it from a position of power over the other person and I guess feel more myself again, enough to... enjoy myself instead of dreading every touch and having every man remind me of him.
"It doesn't always work, and I don't uh... being the one in control isn't..." She's not usually bashful about sex, indeed quite the opposite, but for some reason trying to tell Colin that she likes to be the submissive one in bed is very embarrassing. "But anyway I do manage to enjoy myself, and until all this dream shit the bad times were rare. So it must've... worked a bit."
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"Well, for me specifically the sure-fire methods is: only fuck women. But I don't want to be limited, ya know? Sometimes--" Don't say sometimes you just want some good dick, Athessa, you can be a little more tactful than that. "Sometimes I wanna fuck men. So."
Shrugging, Athessa thinks back to the Maiden Tower, about Ciara and the other girls.
"The girls at the brothel told me that I needed to take control over what was done to me. That if I could... reenact it from a position of power over the other person and I guess feel more myself again, enough to... enjoy myself instead of dreading every touch and having every man remind me of him.
"It doesn't always work, and I don't uh... being the one in control isn't..." She's not usually bashful about sex, indeed quite the opposite, but for some reason trying to tell Colin that she likes to be the submissive one in bed is very embarrassing. "But anyway I do manage to enjoy myself, and until all this dream shit the bad times were rare. So it must've... worked a bit."