"It's the same as with mages, really. You just drink the stuff. I'm not gonna show you how it's done." Is the first thing he's going to make clear. "The steps taken with a philter. The whole kind of ritual of a process. If I...am in need of assistance, I'll talk you through the steps, otherwise that's just gonna be a thing between me and the rest of the Order and nobody else." Just so that's settled. He's always done it in private since he left. He'll retain that modicum of privacy now.
A breath. That's the easy part. Now comes the hard part.
"One of the Chantry's dirty little secrets is lyrium is how they control their holy army. Because you need to keep taking it to keep being able to do what you do. And the Chantry's got control of a lot of the lyrium trade. It's an addiction." Mobius looks away, finding the word distasteful, hard to admit. Even if it's absolutely true and absolutely appropriate to say. "Hear the red stuff's even worse. But for the most part, you take it every day. I usually go every two or three days myself. When I left, I only had so much on me. Had to find my own connections and ways of getting what I needed. You start slipping into withdrawal after about a week. I've done it a couple times, and I don't ever want to do that again, so I learned to try and space out my doses to make what I had last. I don't need to anymore right now, but...you never know."
Mobius is faithful to the religion, but he's never been shy about disparaging the organization. A lot of faults there. Just people being people at the end of the day.
"It isn't like I don't feel the need, every day, just that I can ignore it for a bit. Withdrawal, it's awful. You can get through to the other side, I hear, and kick the habit, but you're taking a risk. Just as likely you'll just get worse and worse and go crazy and die. Or, anyway, go crazy and prefer death to what you're going through. I don't ever plan on stopping, personally. It's been decades. If I stopped now...I don't know what that would even accomplish for me."
He'll lose his mind one way or another. He just prefers that he gets to choose which way.
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"It's the same as with mages, really. You just drink the stuff. I'm not gonna show you how it's done." Is the first thing he's going to make clear. "The steps taken with a philter. The whole kind of ritual of a process. If I...am in need of assistance, I'll talk you through the steps, otherwise that's just gonna be a thing between me and the rest of the Order and nobody else." Just so that's settled. He's always done it in private since he left. He'll retain that modicum of privacy now.
A breath. That's the easy part. Now comes the hard part.
"One of the Chantry's dirty little secrets is lyrium is how they control their holy army. Because you need to keep taking it to keep being able to do what you do. And the Chantry's got control of a lot of the lyrium trade. It's an addiction." Mobius looks away, finding the word distasteful, hard to admit. Even if it's absolutely true and absolutely appropriate to say. "Hear the red stuff's even worse. But for the most part, you take it every day. I usually go every two or three days myself. When I left, I only had so much on me. Had to find my own connections and ways of getting what I needed. You start slipping into withdrawal after about a week. I've done it a couple times, and I don't ever want to do that again, so I learned to try and space out my doses to make what I had last. I don't need to anymore right now, but...you never know."
Mobius is faithful to the religion, but he's never been shy about disparaging the organization. A lot of faults there. Just people being people at the end of the day.
"It isn't like I don't feel the need, every day, just that I can ignore it for a bit. Withdrawal, it's awful. You can get through to the other side, I hear, and kick the habit, but you're taking a risk. Just as likely you'll just get worse and worse and go crazy and die. Or, anyway, go crazy and prefer death to what you're going through. I don't ever plan on stopping, personally. It's been decades. If I stopped now...I don't know what that would even accomplish for me."
He'll lose his mind one way or another. He just prefers that he gets to choose which way.