He gets that. He also knows he's probably trying to find excuses to stay, to do something worthwhile with his life - even if he's 100% certain Korrin would drag him back by a horn if she heard he left because of his fear to lose control.

"I don't want to hurt anyone. That outweighs the fact that I don't really want to leave," Taas mutters. "...but yeah, this place felt like a new start, where I could fight for a cause again. Be who I used to be. Bred to be. Not some addled veteran who would never hold a weapon again."

He cracks slightly, a bit of stressed laughter escaping. "Fuck, I was such a dumb kid. Should have listened to the tamassrans and not touch a sword again."

Taas puts his axe down, slowly. "I'll go."