semi-closed; i cannot see the path

[redinside]

WHO: Samson, Cullen, Mia, Anders, Thranduil, and more perhaps
WHAT: Even more dungeon visits
WHEN: One backdated, the rest current
WHERE: Skyhold Dungeon
NOTES: Preemptive warning for strong language and substance addiction.

the commander's visit;

How long since they first hauled his sorry carcass down those steps and dumped him in a cell? Hours? Days? No sun or moon to tell by, not down here. In the lingering aftermath of his own foolishness, consciousness has been elusive. Through the murk of his memory he glimpses a brisk voice and gentle hands, faces reduced to indistinct shapes, there and gone again. He slept after that—for how long, who knows—and it's from that same sleep he's just been jerked by a well-aimed boot.

Samson is hoisted up from the bedroll before his wits even have time to congeal into awareness, strangers' hands gripping him rough under the arms. They jostle him till he'll sit on his own. Now awake enough to be aggrieved by it, he shrugs them off abruptly, and thereafter two armed and armoured men leave the cell to join others outside it. Shadows and torchlight beyond, bodies moving or leaning to look, the man at the cell door glaring down at him expectantly. The chains are heavy on his wrists as he drags them toward his lap.

Someone important's coming down. He can tell that much.


a captive audience;

First hours, then days, and now weeks later, Samson is still here. Same clothing, same sweat-stained bedroll, same small space to call his own. Apart from sluggish but persistent beard growth that waxes and wanes from week to week, not much else has changed since the first day—not at a glance—only now there's a pail sitting outside his cell, the long handle of a dipper keeping its wooden lid just slightly ajar; from this he can drink when he likes.

It's just as likely you'll find him sleeping as standing. Occasionally, he'll be seated on the bedroll without any shoes or stockings or gloves, biting or tearing at his nails when they grow long enough to need a trim. His hair might still be wet from the occasional wash achieved by bucket and rag. Sweating or shaking, listening or waiting, he's still here.

Comments

[redinside]

Samson watches the cup rise, linger, and come down again, and still, in his fatigued and rumpled state, it takes some time for the intent of its placement to become clear. Rising to his feet is a laborious task, accompanied by the blunted jingle of the chains on his wrists, and when finally he reaches the bars of the prison cell the creases of his face have deepened, his expression pinched with effort. His hands are shaking as they close around the cup and drag it from its perch and up to the level of his chest.

"So you do have some sense left in you after all," he murmurs, looking down into the darkness of the wine, the beading on the rim where Cullen sipped. "Pity you're fighting for the wrong side." He then drinks from the opposite side of the cup, and again, more deeply, with his eyes closed.

[lionheartedman]

"There are a lot of things in my life that I question." More than Samson can understand, more than Cullen will ever share. "One thing I am certain of, is my place in this fight." It comes out more tired than angry. Anger just takes so much energy, and he has precious little of that on the best of days. Now, on top of it all, he gets to add doubt. Could he have made a difference here? Is there anything he might have done, back then or in the time since, that could have changed the path Samson's life took?

It's useless to wonder. Doesn't mean it's easy to stop. "Have you been fed?"

[redinside]

He's still swallowing at the tail end of that question, so he shakes his head till he's done licking the moisture from his lips, running his tongue over his teeth to taste the last of it. "Not since your magickers poured some broth in me. I've been out cold for the most part." He muffles a cough against his forearm, banishes whatever's tickling with a quick growl, clears his throat. "Those four warriors, whoever they were, they put up quite a fight. I haven't been knocked on my arse like that in a good long time."

In the end it was his own recklessness that took Samson out of the fight for good, but his opponents fought hard nevertheless. Credit where it's due.

[lionheartedman]

"We've a good group here." That much is easy for him to admit. They're dedicated and brave souls, most of them.

He moves back to the table, retrieves the bottle of wine and one of the plates full of bread and fruit and cheese. If Samson puts the cup back on the bars, he'll fill it. If he doesn't, he'll still leave the food on the small metal shelf intended to make it easy to give prisoners necessities.

[redinside]

This prisoner makes no move to avail himself of any necessities beyond the drink in his hand. He holds the empty cup between the bars, resting on the crossbar, and waits, and as the liquid flows, he watches the face of the man pouring it. His own eyes have become strange, bruised sockets and heavy lids, the whites gone an angry red around the edges. Pupils wide and dark. He clearly aches, by the way he stands, and the weight of the chains is heavy on his wrists.
Perhaps the weight of the lyrium chain around Cullen's neck has stolen his passion—perhaps that's why there's no sign of the wrath Samson expected to face.

"You didn't come down here to feed me." His voice grinding at the words like gravel beneath a boot. "Go on, Rutherford. Get to the point."

[lionheartedman]

"I did," he responds, though it may not be immediately clear if he means he did come down to feed him, or he did get to the point. Wrath is for men with far more energy than them. Cullen doesn't have it to spare.

Most days, he's certain his armour is the only thing keeping him upright. "Popular opinion is that you can't be trusted. That you should be put down. I'd hoped... that I'd see something of the man I knew."

[redinside]

One puff of humourless laughter escapes through his nose. "What chance do I have against popular opinion?" There's a low current of bitterness there—real bitterness, dredged up by the commander's prior insistence on looking to the past. "You can't just throw a few coins at this in secret and hope it goes away. Not this time."

The cup, now full, remains where it is, held heavy on the bar between them with both his hands curled around it.

[lionheartedman]

"About as much as I did? I'm here. Just... give me something." Something that he can take back, something that he can make stick. There has to be hope. He needs to believe that it can turn out all right for them. Because he still can't help thinking that things could have so easily turned out differently for him, that he could be the one in the cell with death growing inside him.

[redinside]

Very well: he'll be the first to raise his voice.

"Give you what. What d'you want me to say? That you caught me, now I repent all my sins? That I'm ready to come crawling back into Andraste's bloody light? Fuck's sake—" With both hands he tears the cup from its perch and throws it at the cell wall. The resulting arc of wine spills across his arm, his shoulder, spatters at his feet. He doesn't care.

But just as quickly as it flares, Samson's temper drains off, leaving only shame to uncoil its familiar shape as he turns his back on the front of the cell and the man standing there. His posture crumpling, his head hanging low. Broad shoulders sagging and dark hair in disarray. While his pulse settles, he takes measured gulps of air, and the last of these breaths slips out as a weak laugh.

"I thought I'd be dead before it came to this."

[lionheartedman]

Cullen can't actually remember the last time he hurt this deeply. He's been hurt worse since the start of all this, but what he's lost so far has all been recent additions to his life. The Herald, gone before he could even solidify his feelings, before he had a proper name for what he lost. Samson, though, that runs deep, and the wound it leaves is jagged.

He places his own hands on the bars, rests his forehead against them next. He's tired. He's so tired. "I have to believe there's something left of you in there."

[redinside]

Samson closes his eyes against the thrice-repeated demand. The way it lances at his receding anger, it's like a bubble of molten iron bursting, searing where it lands. Pulling as it hardens. He'll be bloody before long.

"You do, do you? Why? What does it matter? Whatever's left, it'll be gone, eventually. You know as well as I do how we all end up. In time, there'll be nothing left of your templars, either. You're using them the same way the Chantry used us, the same way the Inquisition uses you, still, and you can't even see it."