Kain is glad to keep petting Garahel after that, stroking him absentmindedly as he listens to Inessa. That was a bad idea, then. Waiting, and putting it off, it was all among the worst things he could have done. Had he learned nothing from that whole mess with Golbezza? Where all those things he'd repressed had been turned against him...
"You're right, I know. I came close to saying something to you a couple of times, but I always found some excuse to put it off. I wanted to keep some sense of pride. This... this thing, it feels like it lessens me somehow. I don't know, it's hard to explain." It's a foreign, unwanted thing on him... and it's a problem he can't resolve.
He looks at her thoughtfully, he'd been afraid of the warning of course, the need to be more careful than usual. Now she'll worry for him and it worries him to have her expend energy on him in this way. "I'm in no rush to meet my end, promise. That's reserved for the Calling alone." He is determined to last that long, as his father had done. "Inessa... is there anything else I should be wary of? Anything at all? It doesn't... have any unwanted longterm effects I'm not yet aware of or anything, does it?"
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"You're right, I know. I came close to saying something to you a couple of times, but I always found some excuse to put it off. I wanted to keep some sense of pride. This... this thing, it feels like it lessens me somehow. I don't know, it's hard to explain." It's a foreign, unwanted thing on him... and it's a problem he can't resolve.
He looks at her thoughtfully, he'd been afraid of the warning of course, the need to be more careful than usual. Now she'll worry for him and it worries him to have her expend energy on him in this way. "I'm in no rush to meet my end, promise. That's reserved for the Calling alone." He is determined to last that long, as his father had done. "Inessa... is there anything else I should be wary of? Anything at all? It doesn't... have any unwanted longterm effects I'm not yet aware of or anything, does it?"