Open | If you forget, is it like it never happened?

[killedwithlove]

WHO: Cole and anyone who needs or wants him
WHAT: Cole's back. If he ever left. Who really knows?
WHEN: Now until end of February.
WHERE: Skyhold
NOTES: If you want a personal starter, drop me a PM or find me at jemisard

Those sensitive to such things might notice that Cole is back. He's hard to remember at the best of times, and after such a long period, Cole himself expects virtually no one to remember who he is or that he's allowed to be here.

But it doesn't stop him doing what he does. Moving about, helping those he can.

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[killedwithlove]

Cole frowns slightly, just looking confused.

"I don't understand."

[blightedson]

Felix thinks that over, how to better word it. He's really worried that this comes off as rude. It's not that he's assuming spirits don't have feelings, but just that they might be entirely different than the emotions and attachments that humans have. "Can two spirits like each other? Could you be friends with another spirit? Does friendship even exist in the Fade in a way that a human would understand?"

[killedwithlove]

"No."

Cole pauses and then realises it probably needs more explanation. "Spirits aren't complicated like that. They... are. Old spirits, complex spirits, they can, have more than just a simple self. But spirits don't really care about spirits. Spirits just are. They might act out a tragic romance, but after, they don't feel anything about it. They can't. Rage rages. Compassion cares. Sloth wants to laze."

Spirits can bond with humans. But with each other...

"I cared about Justice. But we weren't friends. I cared because Justice was suffering and so was Anders."

[blightedson]

Felix can't help but feel a bit sad at that, but that's mostly because he's a human and has a human perspective. He tries to keep that in mind. "How do you feel about what happened to Justice?"

[killedwithlove]

"I'm glad Anders is happier. And I'm glad Justice isn't suffering anymore. It's better, for everyone, Justice being back in the Fade. Being in Anders was doing bad things to both of them, making them suffer, making other people hurt."

It's more complicated than just glad, but that's the over riding feeling.

[blightedson]

Felix nods at that, and finds himself agreeing on some level. "How do you experience the Fade? Is it... more like a physical place for you?"

[killedwithlove]

"I don't remember being a spirit in the Fade very well. Compassion doesn't need to remember." He has no proof that's why he didn't remember, but maybe it's just that he's too different to understand it anymore.

"I went into the Fade in Adamant. I didn't like it. It was all wrong. And I was wrong. We were both wrong."

[blightedson]

"So... then, probably not a physical place..." He frowns a bit. "I'm sorry you had to experience something that felt so wrong." Ellana had almost died in the Fade, and thinking about it made him feel a weird ache in his chest. "That place seemed like a terrible experience for everyone involved."

[killedwithlove]

"No. Yes. Maybe." He shrugs slightly. "I don't know. I'm sorry. Solas might know, but he's not here." And Cole can't really help more than that.

"Nightmare isn't kind. What it controls is no more kind than it is."