Open | If you forget, is it like it never happened?

[killedwithlove]

WHO: Cole and anyone who needs or wants him
WHAT: Cole's back. If he ever left. Who really knows?
WHEN: Now until end of February.
WHERE: Skyhold
NOTES: If you want a personal starter, drop me a PM or find me at jemisard

Those sensitive to such things might notice that Cole is back. He's hard to remember at the best of times, and after such a long period, Cole himself expects virtually no one to remember who he is or that he's allowed to be here.

But it doesn't stop him doing what he does. Moving about, helping those he can.

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[in_death_sacrifice]

There really is something in how he says it. Kain just looks at him thoughtfully for a moment, but soon after that, just nods. "It seems you've come to be in the right place, then. We can all use all the help we can get."

Not just for personal matters, but the Inquisition in general.

[killedwithlove]

"Yes. If there was somewhere else I could help more, then I would go there. It's why I went away for a while."

He was needed elsewhere. He had done what he could and then come back.

[in_death_sacrifice]

"Well... I hope you did what you could, wherever you went. And that you'll continue to help us here for a while."

All in all, while this Cole seems like a weird younger man, he's also... nice to be around, in a way? He really does seem to care, and maybe that's all that really matters.

[killedwithlove]

"I do care," he replies to the unspoken comment. "That's part of what Compassion is. Caring. Understanding. And while I can help here, I will."

There's no real way to explain that as anything other than mind reading.

[in_death_sacrifice]

"Huh? Huh..." That was odd, had he said that out loud? Kain blinks a little, unsure about that, and doubting himself after a few moments. Maybe he mentioned something, after all? At some point? Well, no need to worry about it too much. "Then I suppose I know where to go, the next time I need help."

If he even remembers him, anyway...

[killedwithlove]

"No."

It's the answer to the unspoken question, but that could easily not be apparent.

"You won't remember. It's okay. When you need help, I'll find you."

[in_death_sacrifice]

"You will? Just like that? You must have a very good sense for this sort of thing..."

Magic, surely, though it's unlike most that he's heard of. Not that he's any sort of expert in that field, though, so who knows? Anything could be possible... even a magic that's spooky yet helpful.

[killedwithlove]

"Yes. I do. I always know when someone needs help. It's what I am."

Not what he does. What he is.

"I hope it gets better."

[in_death_sacrifice]

"That's... truly something impressive. Thank you. I hope it does, as well. I can only... keep trying and see what becomes of it." He has a lot of things to work out, for himself, but he's more determined now to settle it all for good. He can do this. He can. Or... so he hopes.

[killedwithlove]

"You can," Cole encourages him. "Regrets of 'what if' are some of the worst pains, because you can't ever soothe them."

[in_death_sacrifice]

"I've already done a lot of things I regret... I don't want to add more to that, you're right. Especially the 'what if' scenario... I've already lost this opportunity once," well technically it was never there, but even so, "and I won't lose it again. Not this time."

[killedwithlove]

"I know you have," Cole murmurs, coming closer again. His hand comes to Kain's shoulder. "And it's so hard. But you survived. Your spirit survives and fights on."

[in_death_sacrifice]

"You know?" He shakes his head, wondering why he's so surprised at the moment. By now he shouldn't be, given everything else Cole has said so far. "Ah... never mind, of course you do. I'm still moving past it... it hasn't been easy, but I'm trying more lately..."

And he wants to try more to get past it all, so he can move on.

[killedwithlove]

Cole gives a small, sad smile.

"You want to. That's the start of doing it. You should try more words on the paper. I'll be back if you need me."

[in_death_sacrifice]

"More than words..." Well. That's going to be even harder to deal with. He's not too good at expressing himself, which is why he'd decided to write it out first. What if Inessa rejects him? He can't handle that again, from someone else. A letter would give distance, and let him leave if she were to say no...

And yet... and yet. Maybe it's something to consider. This Cole seems like he just... Knows Things. It's hard to explain.

"I'll keep that in mind. And thank you. For your help, that is."

[killedwithlove]

"No. Just more words on the paper, until you find the right combination for inside yourself."

He rocks back and forth slowly. "I'm glad I helped. I might see you again."

He turns and then he just seems to be... gone.