In its way, the reassurance is worse than condemnation would have been. He knows he endangered all of them; if he'd fled instead of freezing--
They wouldn't be having this conversation.
"There isn't much I'd say right now." If she doesn't demand a direct accounting of him, he won't volunteer one--not when his gut roils and his heart beats faster at the mere thought of explaining. Better to ignore it.
"But I do appreciate the concern; it won't--" happen again, he'd promise, but his throat closes up on the lie. (She'd gone for hexes first; entropy's likely her primary school and there's no arguing its utility in battle. If they're fielded together again, there's no avoiding exposure and he can't tell her why he'd want to.) "--I'll be better prepared next time."
He ruffles the short stiff fur between Garahel's ears as the mabari whines, trying to impart a reassurance he doesn't feel.
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They wouldn't be having this conversation.
"There isn't much I'd say right now." If she doesn't demand a direct accounting of him, he won't volunteer one--not when his gut roils and his heart beats faster at the mere thought of explaining. Better to ignore it.
"But I do appreciate the concern; it won't--" happen again, he'd promise, but his throat closes up on the lie. (She'd gone for hexes first; entropy's likely her primary school and there's no arguing its utility in battle. If they're fielded together again, there's no avoiding exposure and he can't tell her why he'd want to.) "--I'll be better prepared next time."
He ruffles the short stiff fur between Garahel's ears as the mabari whines, trying to impart a reassurance he doesn't feel.