Cannot Find The Words

[el_tybs]

WHO: Samouel Gareth and ANYONE
WHAT: A lots happened since the Fallow Mire. Sam reflects and keeps busy before getting shipped out again.
WHEN: Between returning from Fallow Mire and leaving for War Table operations
WHERE: Skyhold
NOTES: Just the usual.

{Magic Lessons - Before/During/After}
Even though Fallow Mire had been trying, it doesn't mean that he can just take a break from his lessons. Sam is progressing with his Spirit magic with the help of Lady LeBlanc, as well as learning to control Ice spells to a point, though having difficulty. He's also trying to get the grasp on Storm magic with the help of Roul.


{The Armory}
With the new shipment of ores from the Fallow Mire there have been numerous orders for armor and weapons. Seeing as his sparring lessons with Krem have been put on hold for now for... reaons, he spends most late afternoons/early evenings helping with the forges.


{The Library}
He's still having issues falling asleep since the bog so Sam spends a good amount of time in the library in the evenings. That's not the only thing keeping him up. There are a number of crumpled up papers on the floor as he tries to figure out what to say in a letter.


{Wildcard}

Comments

[amygdalae]

It's not a problem.

[He gives another smile, this one less wry, then glances over to the half-written paper - letter - that Samouel is apparently trying to write.]

To your family? [He asks after a moment's pause, turning back to Samouel with another inquiring look.]

[el_tybs]

[Sam gives a sigh as he sets the quill on the table and shoves the balls of paper off to the side so that he has room, his eyes falling to the paper he was currently working on.]

... Yeah...

[He doesn't say anything for a moment, a hand coming up to rub the back of his neck as he skims over the words again. With another huff he turns back to Bruce and gives a small smile, giving up on writing at the moment.]

Trying to at least. It's been... a looong time. I can't even be sure the letter will find them.

[amygdalae]

[He can tell that this is a hard topic for Samouel to bring up, judging from the way he responds and how he looks. And its not as if Bruce can't relate to that.

He gives a small nod himself, giving Samouel a sympathetic smile.] There's never any harm in trying, I think.

[Even if the letter doesn't get there, at least Samouel tried. And that's the most important thing.]

[el_tybs]

I should have tried a lot sooner.

[That's what's bothering him really, that he didn't find time before to do it.]

Just figured that since I hadn't talked to them since... before the Circle that it could wait a little longer. But I kept putting it off.

[amygdalae]

Don't be too hard on yourself. I'm sure you must have your reasons.

[Being a former Circle mage himself, Bruce can understand in a way what Samouel must have gone through - of course, Bruce himself was already orphaned by the time the Templars found him, but the sense of separation was still the same.]

What matters now is that you're trying. Better late than never.

[el_tybs]

[He knows what Bruce is trying to say, but... late wasn't necessarily better. Not with this at least.]

Just worried what I'll find out... or won't find out rather. I can't be sure they're still in Ostwick.

[amygdalae]

[Ah--yes. That makes much more sense now.]

Well, there's still no harm in giving it a shot. [He manages a smile here, doing his best to be welcoming.] I wish you all the best, then.

[el_tybs]

Thanks.

Any suggestions how to start a letter off to someone you haven't talked to for almost 12 years?

[amygdalae]

[WELL...]

'Hello, I hope this gets to you. How have you been?'

[...hey, at least he tried.]

[el_tybs]

[That pulls a small chuckle from Sam at how short, sweet, and to the point it is.]

Well if it does get to them they'd probably want to hear more than that.

[amygdalae]

Well, its just a starter. How you continue from that is up to you.

[If Samouel's letter did just only have that Bruce would be pretty surprised.]

[el_tybs]

[Sam gives a small huff as he runs a hand through his hair.]

True. I don't have to write everything down at once.

[amygdalae]

Just take it a bit at a time. I'm sure you'll figure it out.

[You've managed to get this far, don't let writing a letter stop you.]

[el_tybs]

[They're so very hard though.]

Probably saying I'm alive and not in the Circle would be a good start I suppose.

[amygdalae]

[It's okay Samouel, at least you're trying.]

Letting them know you're okay is always a good starting point, I figure.

[el_tybs]

[Bruce is such a good listener.]

Probably skip over the part about buildings exploding and such though.

[amygdalae]

[He does his best.]

Well, unless you want them to know about it.

[el_tybs]

I think holes in the sky, and saying that I'm fighting demons and the like will be enough for them to handle. Gotta pick your battles right?

[amygdalae]

Sounds pretty good to me.

[And pretty fair as well.]

[el_tybs]

Thanks, Bruce. For listening.

[amygdalae]

Not a problem. I hope everything goes well for you.

[el_tybs]

Night, Bruce. If I don't see you before I head out; see you around.

[amygdalae]

I'm sure we'll see each other again eventually.