[Closed] A perfect storm

[justice_is_blond]

WHO: Anders, established-CR people; poke me on plurk or in Discord for a top level if you'd like!
WHAT: A pair of triggers collide and fuck up Anders
WHEN: Early Guardian
WHERE: The Gallows
NOTES: Panic attacks, possible talk of trauma in the past, related issues, dark thoughts

He'd run from being locked up seven times, knowing that the seventh was a death sentence, and been willing to go in alone to what seemed likely to be a lethal trap (and was) to try to destroy his phylactery. With both of them, life like that wasn't worth it.

Now both are back. He's held again, in a Circle, his phylactery is being messed with, and on top of that he can't heal in Darktown so he can do even less than he could in Kirkwall seven years ago.

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[justice_is_blond]

He has comfort here, in the midst of all of this mess, a few islands of safety and Cyril is one of them. Anders exhales shakily, nodding.

"History won't repeat any time soon. We have enough. For now." The future matters a lot, but now matters too and he appreciates not being alone. He takes another breath, getting a hold of himself. "Andraste had it easy, all she had to do was write and die."

It's not something he'd say to most humans, but he doesn't think it's going to horrify Cyril.

[samahl]

The opposite, really. Cyril smiles a bit at the dark humor there. "Please try to avoid the second one for as long as possible, hm?" he comments. "I like having you around."

[justice_is_blond]

Cyril gets a faint smile back.

"I've gotten fairly good at avoiding the second one, somehow. Don't ask how." Twice he's been absolutely ready to die. Now he has so much to live for that he fights for it with a dangerous desperation, and fears its loss.

"But I've motivation for avoiding the last as long as possible. I promise."

[samahl]

"Good," Cyril replies, grinning in a reassuring sort of way. "I will hold you do that, you know. We've crossed into the Fade before, if you fail I'll find a way back in just to take you back out of it and give you a talking to."

[justice_is_blond]

His smile strengthens as he leans against Cyril.

"Hearing that means the world, Cyril. I'm lucky to have you for a friend."

[samahl]

"And I you," Cyril replies. He rubs Anders' arm lightly. "Let me know if there is anything I can help with?"

/wraps?

[justice_is_blond]

"I will." He reaches over to give Cyril's hand a squeeze. "Thank you, Cyril."