there was only me and my disgrace

[dirth]

WHO: Solas and Thranduil
WHAT: Something a little like this
WHEN: After Morrigan's report has been handed to Thranduil
WHERE: Solas' rooms
NOTES: Some Trespasser spoilers, if anyone is worried about them!

It's rare that anyone comes to Solas' rooms - there are a few people, enough to count on one hand and little more, who might know to seek him out here if he was not in the library, but it is few and far between. Most people, if they seek his council or his wisdom, are content to wait for him to emerge from his sleep with whatever new memories and fond visions he has captured from the Fade, with whatever it is that he's learned that evening.

The knock shakes him from his ready and he frowns, considering for a moment. The very fact that someone has come here without contacting him first - as would be the case for Galadriel or Gwen, for example - makes him think that it might be some kind of emergency, even if he's not entirely sure he wants to deal with those sorts of issues right now. Given the state of Kirkwall... It's hard not to get yourself entangled in it all.

In the end, good intentions - or, rather, bad ones, depending upon the person - win out and Solas moves forward, putting his book down on his desk. It's an easy walk to the door and his surprise is evident once he sees who is waiting there for him, his head tilting and his eyebrow raising just a little. He's surprised but not altogether unhappy to see his friend on his threshold.

"Thranduil. I did not expect you." Slowly, stepping back, Solas motions him to enter the room.

Comments

[dirth]

"I have made great effort to make it that I am the least of suspects. You are cleverer than most." He is, after all, an unsuspecting elven apostate - the most interesting thing about him is that he is a Dreamer, a convenient excuse for all the information he has in his mind. He nods his head to Thranduil, does not lean into the touch, but allows him the escape - for it is a means for him to discuss things with Galadriel that he is yet unaware of.

"You have my sincerest thanks for it." His eyes close, just for a moment; Thranduil is gone and this moment is for them, now. He can bask in her touch, her gentleness, her warmth, his eyes flicking up to look at her. His hesitance is there but it has faded in the wake of her newfound knowledge, something like a laugh slipping from his lip.

"Yes." His fingers wrap around the ones on his face, holding her hand. "I could not allow myself to have... Feelings when I had a goal to focus on. It was not right." But she shares that goal, that plan, and there's a want bubbling through him that makes him want. "It was no fault of yours."

[laurenande]

"A comforting reassurance," Galadriel replies. In truth, it was. She had never had someone recoil as he had after kissing them, it was a strange moment, but one that was not being corrected.

"And a noble attempt to spare me pain, however unnecessary it ended up being. Tell me, Solas, do you still wish to avoid feelings in the face of our goal?"

She has not stepped back, nor does she appear eager to do so, but before she presses him, in word or to the table, certainty is key. She read much in his heart and expects she knows his answer, but she would hear it from him.

[dirth]

Galadriel is now more aware of him than anyone had been in centuries; she reads through and cuts to the heart, knows his mistakes, his guilt, his pain, and does not shun him for it. It had been on the tip of his tongue, unvoiced if not unthought, and he had yearned for her acceptance, for her comfort, for her to reach for him and tell him that he was doing what was right. To know that the two of them together, with Thranduil at their side, will find a means of reaching their goals... It is miraculous.

"I am cautious," he admits. It's not because he fears her learning the truth now - that cowardice has been broken and shattered under her gentle gaze - but because of how long it has been. He does not consider himself worth affection, worth tenderness, not with all that he had done to and for the People, but he wants. He may act as a solitary creature but he misses the company of his fellows more than he can express.

He hesitates, his eyes lifting to look at her, before he manages a soft, gentle smile.

"But not unwilling."

[laurenande]

"How fortunate," Galadriel says softly and closes the distance between them to press a kiss against his mouth. It is not hurried, nor firm and simmering with passion, but a delighted thing, glad for the news her heart has received. Once she has granted it, she sets her forehead against his.

"You need not worry that I have judged you, Solas," she says. "I have no fondness for gods, nor for those who would claim that mantle...and I have done such...terrible things to prevent the decline of the Eldar from grace.

"Desperation is an enemy we have both known well, but we shall not meet it again afield, not alone."

[dirth]

Solas leans into the kiss, as gentle and soft as it is. It's nothing made of passion or overwhelming desire, but a promise for something more in the future, an acceptance, an understanding of one another. It fills the empty part of him with warmth and tenderness, his body tilting up as he leans against her, the smile never fading from the gentle turn of his mouth.

He could grow accustomed to this, and it frightens him as much as it soothes him. Wolves are pack animals at heart and Solas has been alone for a terribly long time - but his People, even a fleeting image of them, may return. For as long as the Anchor shards are present, for as long as people are here, for as long as he can reach and try to believe...

You change...

Solas kisses her again.

"I am glad to have you at my side, Galadriel."