closed; in dread i looked up once more

[sarcophage]

WHO: Ilias + Leander
WHAT: !!!!!
WHEN: right the heck now
WHERE: The Gallows
NOTES: these characters tend to go real dark real fast. will add warnings as needed.

As far as either of them are concerned, it's been just another day in a sequence of days, all equally unremarkable in their shared undercurrent of suspense. Of anxiety. Awareness of proximity, indecision, avoidance. Secrets pressing at thinning seams. Just another day of the same.

A phylactery could prevent this. Even a homemade phylactery produced in secret by a couple of clever young men (idiot boys) at the height of their romance (hormones) could prevent this. But unless Ilias has made a habit of carrying it around with him, and unless he has decided—unwisely, and very coincidentally—to observe it while he travels through populated common spaces on his way to the kitchen, he'll have no way of knowing.

Leander has made no such habit, himself. And that is why, instead of a precision encounter, he wanders straight into an accident. It's as easy as walking through a doorway. Just one doorway, and there he is, same height (but somehow taller), same shape (only stronger), same colours (dark and tan and grey), same face and eyes and No, no no no, this isn't how it's meant to be, there are too many people here, it's too fucking early—

Absurdly, ridiculously, he does precisely the opposite of what he intended to do all along, and might have done in any other circumstance:

He runs.

Not literally. No flurry of fabric or clattering footsteps. Just Leander, a familiar silhouette in a doorway, thinner and paler than before, but very alive, very there—and gone again before either brain can fire a rational impulse.

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[That, not the knife and what it might be used for, is the chance he's offering. He's fought through these past years to become stronger, more focused, more frightening, to ensure he'll survive another attempt. (The way his body frustrates him now, he needs that edge to persist. A fitting reflection in a fractured mirror.)

The moving thumb grazes him inside; two fingers loosen just so; his expression doesn't change.]

I put it away.

[The scales tip even.]

Beyond that, whatever comes next... we'll have to discover it.

[Together. Whatever form that takes.]

[libratus]

[ Together.

It doesn't need to be said. The risk of it feels free fall swift, and not just to accept that whatever resolution he'd once intended for the two of them won't come to pass, but to open this little world he's started to build here between stone walls and splitting skies, to the man who'd shattered the last one. Trust, when he knows exactly why he shouldn't. Torchlight shivers in the still whites of his eyes.

But the wood beneath his thumb — funny, how even after so long, the texture of a thing can have left an imprint clear as in clay, where fingers once gripped tight around it, pulled it in with desperate force until it blunted on bone. He remembers feeling like he didn't have any choices. Like he didn't have control of anything at all.

(What if he does, now?) ]

Then we'll discover it.

[ Fingers uncurl. Drop to his side. ]

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[In his imagination Leander followed Ilias to somewhere out of the way, one of his habitual haunts—patterns he had begun to notice, then deliberately let slip, thinking it too sordid a method for this—and confronted him at the correct moment. He was confident. Purposeful.

Their hands move apart, and Lea looks down to the folded knife, turns it over once in his fingers. It's just an object. He'd used it for any miscellaneous purpose before the woods, and he continued to use it for such after it was hesitantly returned to him, by his own firm request—and now, he thinks, it might be time to get a new one.

He puts it away, as promised. Takes his time doing it.

(Silence buzzing like flies returning to swarm, like the inexpressible gathering of the Veil between his ribs).]

I don't expect you to forgive me.

[But...]

[libratus]

Good.

[ It's quick. Brittle. More so than he means by the next beat, perhaps, but there it is all the same, the bone beneath more forgiving flesh. He's decided to leave the door ajar; not to welcome. Not yet.

Soft shoes slide back a step across stone; air opens between them, and in the space of it Ilias's eyes lift -- studying, where they might easily be colder. ]

If forgiveness is something you seek, you might consider how it's earned.

[ Penance. Not just suffering. ]

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[For Leander, forgiveness has always been a certainty, won easily by softened features and sorrowful eyes, or a few shyly spoken words. It's a tool. A weapon. A game, bait to be dangled, to delight in the way a person's face changes when finally they see the void where mercy should be. It isn't something he's had to cultivate for himself.

At a glance, knee-jerk, the directive is unappealing. If you were anyone else—he'd turn his back on the door and the glimpse of what lay beyond it.

But this isn't anyone else.

Still,]

I'll consider it, if you'll do the same.