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Sorrelean Lavellan ([personal profile] writteninblood) wrote in [community profile] faderift2019-02-19 09:18 pm

What Comes Due | Open (with prompt for Myr)

WHO: Sorrel
WHAT: Dietary supplements
WHEN: A good bit after Kirkwail
WHERE: Just outside Kirkwall
NOTES: hunting gore, ect.



Winter in Kirkwall was about as unpleasant as anything else in Kirkwall. It had a scrubby, grasping character, and if it had been a person it would have been a bent old man, steely-haired, dressed in rags, and in possession of a lengthy bankroll which he would neither evidence nor share. In such a manner did the flowers sleep under the begrudging snow around the city; secret, miserly, and invisible.

It was, in a word, absolutely miserable hunting. Even if the hungry habits of the city's ordinary population of scavengers had not made it so, nature herself would have. Sorrel quietly attributed it to some unheard-of curse from Andruil, but did not share this opinion with anyone when he went out into it. Sometimes, you just need to know your best audience; Kirkwall was not it. And anyways, he was out of practice enough that there was probably no curse here not going by the more ordinary name of 'laziness,' not that hunting was his job. Sorrel left Kirkwall in sensible leather footwraps, robes left behind in favor of practical, close-bodied leathers, bow, arrows, and kit in tow. He was going to get the hell out of this city, just for a little while. He needed the air, and the quiet, and the clean empty hate of the world to wash away the clinging, personal hatred that came with living in the Gallows, or in Kirkwall at all.

And it felt good, to breathe.




_i._for myr_
....And, as promised, he brought Myr along with him! The weather had begun grey and sullen, lightening slowly over the morning until the sky shone with that particular purity of blue that was unique to bright winter afternoons. The cold was biting, even though the wind was low, but Sorrel paid it no mind with the sun warming his back, and was happy to chat quietly with Myr along their path. Luck, and a lot of trudging through an ice-backed skin of snow-over-mud eventually found them a chance when they crossed a deer-path, and they'd turned to follow it without much real hope, though in a cheerful spirit.

Or, Sorrel felt cheerful. The point of this was, in a small part, to get a very petty sort of comeuppance, and that is always an emotion to warm one's heart, even when your fingertips are numb and tingling.

"What do you think of it, so far?" He was presently asking, with that very same cheer. Sorrel turned a grin on Myr as he did so; alright, he was enjoying it, and wouldn't apologize. It's a beautiful day.
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[personal profile] faithlikeaseed 2019-03-07 04:07 am (UTC)(link)
"I'd meant to hit it in the head," Myr says, rueful and regretful both, once it's all over and he's cut the rabbit's throat to end its suffering. "I s'pose I sort of did." It's a little hard to look the poor maimed thing in the face to examine exactly what he'd done to it, but he does it anyway, a twitch at the corner of one eye belying his discomfort with what he's done.

He's killed before, men and animals both, but usually with more...grace. Than this. He works the rabbit's shattered jaw a little with one finger before wincing.

"Would've gone cleaner with magic. --We've got to dress it now, right?"

Because when in discomfort or doubt it's better to keep his momentum going and just. Fix the situation on the move.
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[personal profile] faithlikeaseed 2019-03-07 04:49 am (UTC)(link)
The look Myr gives Sorrel in return is equally baffled. "You brought a bow," he points out. "I thought--the point was I couldn't just use magic to make this easier." Because if he could, well, there's a lot he'd have done differently. Starting with not wearing all the extra clothing in favor of something a little more convenient using a warming glyph or two.

Ending with not murdering a rabbit with a rock. Yikes. He glances down at his own knife, notes the blood on it and wipes it clean on the rabbit's fur with absentminded care. "This'll do," he says as absently. "But I--"

"Unless you need a minder for this?"

Unaccountably (no, he knows exactly why but won't analyze it right now,) the question puts his hackles up. No, he almost snaps back stubbornly--it's fine, he's fine, he's not sheltered or useless, he can figure it out on his own! ...Or butcher the rabbit in an unintended, unusable way because he hasn't really ever done this before.

For once, reason wins over wounded pride. "I've never cleaned a rabbit before." His tone is exceptionally mild. His expression isn't quite--it takes him a moment to get that under control--but it gets easier as he talks more. "So unless you'd like whatever results from me working it out on my own--I'd appreciate a few pointers."
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[personal profile] faithlikeaseed 2019-03-08 07:30 am (UTC)(link)
...Oh.

Oh.

When Sorrel smiles like that, it's a lot easier to like him. Myr hesitates a stunned second before smiling back, a little bemused but earnest for all that. "No," he admits, "I suppose it didn't." And a lot less than being a stubborn ass about it would have. He's recovered enough by the time Sorrel comes over to him to return the shoulder-bump and turn all his formidable attention to the lesson of cleaning a rabbit. It's easier than he thought it would be, almost so much as to make that childish bit of him that likes to see the Maker's hand in individual details (which isn't how it worked, not really) wonder that they weren't created specifically to feed people.

A nice just-so story, but not very theologically valid.

The face he makes at Sorrel's hands is one of exquisite and feigned and overacted disgust, because really: It's not that bad, but so much of the weight has lifted off their relationship he can tease: "Oh, I see, it's that the rock was too much, I'm supposed to be going after them barehanded. --And I hardly think the fire'll mind a little blood in it, so," he makes a shooing motion; go wash up and he'll take care of that part of camp.

Getting on toward spring--slowly, so slowly, but inevitably--as it is there's yet enough combustible material around that Myr has a modest heap of it in short order. He doesn't scruple from using magic for the fire, now that the imaginary block on it is out of his head. Laying firewood is still not something he's precisely expert at, but really you don't need to be when you're going to keep it all going with a glyph raked into the winter-hard dirt with a handy piece of stick. Only set your kindling down carefully enough not to disturb the lines, speak the word to bring it to life, and pretty soon they've got a cheery blaze going and he can go rub his hands clean in a linger patch of snow.

"D'you have any designs on the liver?" he asks, a little cagily, once they've had a chance to settle in with meat spitted and roasting. Somebody's got a favorite part of the animal.
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[personal profile] faithlikeaseed 2019-03-09 10:15 am (UTC)(link)
Myr's face, ordinarily so changeable a mirror of his emotions, goes through puzzlement to concern to alarm to--nothing, a blank studied wariness at Don't panic. Because of course--to him--that means there's something behind him that would otherwise be worthy of panic, something that might attack if he moves wrong or even breathes wrong. A part of him clamors to get up, throw a barrier, defend against whatever's come up on them--

But he trusts Sorrel now in a way he hadn't before, precisely, a trust born from the splintering brittle eggshell of his own pride. So he is very still as the whatever-it-is comes close enough to wuffle at his hair (a wolf? A bear? They'd smell different, surely, even in the cold--), and very still as it moves away, and only turns to look, with aching care, after a long moment has passed. After he's steeled himself to not react to whatever very unpleasant...surprise...is...waiting...

He makes a noise low in the back of his throat, surprise like a sob: He knows a halla when he's nose-to-nose with one and the look of her is both bittersweet and familiar. It seems almost as if he should say something to greet her, to answer that unvoiced feeling of instant familiarity--but words fail him to look her in the eyes and see a sister staring back. (His is a credulous and believing heart, primed for faith, but he couldn't believe every story; couldn't take it on scant evidence that elves and halla were kin.)

Instead, he lifts a hand to her, palm out, fingers splayed, the gesture tentative and stopping far short of touching that velvet nose. His own eyes are wide and bright with wonder.
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[personal profile] faithlikeaseed 2019-03-10 07:19 am (UTC)(link)
He closes his fingers around that moment of contact, pressing hand to heart as he watches her wheel and vanish into the forest once more. He's got eyes for little else until she has; only then does he look around him, seeing the hoofprint--seeing Sorrel watching him and looks away, almost bashful.

It isn't shame--it isn't that. He isn't ashamed to have looked so in front of someone else, only--only, he is not accustomed to being so vulnerable in the presence of the sacred before someone he still scarcely knows, however fondly he thinks of the other man now. It takes him yet another moment to order his thoughts enough to answer the question he's been asked: "Could you hear her?"

"I," he starts, stops. It wasn't hearing, exactly, but there'd been something there that he can't quite articulate. "I felt-- It was as if she'd been searching for me; she knew who I was and she'd come looking even though--we'd never met before."

It hadn't been words. But it had gotten through, even so. Myr looks to Sorrel once more, a species of longing plain in his face. Had he understood?
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[personal profile] faithlikeaseed 2019-03-12 06:03 am (UTC)(link)
"Ow." Since he's got a cousin near enough to a brother Myr's sort-of expecting that's going to happen when Sorrel leans in and reaches like that--but sort-of expecting doesn't mean he won't shoot the other man a dirty look in that first instant. What was that for? he doesn't say--because it dawns on him all of a sudden, and he rubs the side of his head with a sheepish answering grin.

"Not so flat as you were expecting, huh?" It is a relief and a release both to rejoin the day-to-day world, to joke and laugh and tend to the rabbit rather than let himself vanish into contemplation of what just happened. (That will be for later, when he's lying beside Simon sleepless at night or in the quiet of the service chapel.) He sets to managing their meal-to-be with a will, making up what he lacks in finesse at camp cuisine with enthusiasm.

...All right, so maybe you can't do that with cooking, and maybe he figures that out and backs off before he actually ruins anything. Even if there's a briefly precarious moment as he's getting it turned. "--So it's true you can simply ask them for anything you need help with, and they'll oblige?"
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[personal profile] faithlikeaseed 2019-03-14 05:43 am (UTC)(link)
"Oh. I hadn't thought slaves, so much, as--" As mabari, which Myr's got a feeling now is a demeaning comparison, however intelligent the big dogs were. "--well; I'd thought wrong," he concludes, with an upward quirk of one corner of his mouth.

He looks down at the cooking rabbit, thoughtfully. "How do you hear them? When they speak to you, that is--is it truly words or something," he gestures like he's trying to pull those self-same words from the air, at a loss for them himself, "more like knowing how they feel?"

A pause, and then a little more hushed: "And can you get better at it?"
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[personal profile] faithlikeaseed 2019-03-19 10:33 pm (UTC)(link)
"...Huh."

That's enough food for thought all at once that Myr lapses silent entirely, staring into the fire--staring through the fire--as he thinks on what Sorrel's said. To think of oneself--one's entire people--of standing in the same relation to halla that halla were to elves; to imagine how an entire species might reason among themselves without words, deciding when and where to travel as naturally as birds threading the sky on their way north in the winter.

Like deer making trails. Like a mage dreaming her way through the Fade. How much of what any of them were came from things below conscious thought--from instinct, from predators, from the shape of the land they walked?

He shakes himself from getting too deep on the question to turn the rabbit again.

"I think," softly, "it's a very great shame we never got a chance to know them, in the cities." Embers escape from the edge of the fire as a small log burns through; he takes up a stick to poke them back over the body of the smoldering glyph.

"I know we couldn't. It would be cruel to keep something wild inside the alienage's walls; they'd never choose it for themselves. And even if they did, the worst sort of shems would take them for meat." And what does that say about the People? "But anyone can see we've lost our place in the world and now I don't wonder that they're part of it."
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[personal profile] faithlikeaseed 2019-03-20 12:04 am (UTC)(link)
He looks up at the way Sorrel says his name, hearing it for once like it belongs to someone else--someone who's better-suited to these woods, who long ago learned to hunt rabbits and commune with halla and walk more quietly between the branches.

The words that follow surprise him more than a little, because: "Dad," pause, "my father came south from Tevinter. With my older brother. They didn't talk much about family."

Of course, he'd always assumed his father for a child of some Tevene alienage, stretching back generations, much as his mother's side made claims of long residence in Hasmal. And sentiments in Hasmal being what they were about Tevinter, that little piece of family history was an assumption Myr was wholly comfortable leaving unexplored; it wasn't romantic or dramatic or exciting, but it was familiar.

This knocks the top off the whole thing.
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[personal profile] faithlikeaseed 2019-03-20 02:21 am (UTC)(link)
Duty.

Well. Myr almost--but doesn't--laugh; it would be at himself and not Sorrel but there's not always a good way to make that distinction, and it's the sort of laugh that might bubble over into a little hysteria at the--the appropriateness of it.

Dad had never said. Maybe Dad hadn't known, depending on how such a purely Dalish name made its way into Tevinter. Or maybe there was something of the meaning of the name in the keeping of it, and maybe he'd have learned that when he was older, along with whatever had happened to Ben's mother and whether he'd any other half-siblings who hadn't been able to flee.

"A little," he says when he think he's control of himself; it's ironic understatement. "I always had. I--like names; like the meanings of them. But you can't find Dalish names in any books they keep around the Circles."

So he never knew. His gaze drifts back to the fire, expression quit of its usual animation. A little like the listlessness of a man in shock--because even if this isn't true (and Sorrel couldn't know how the name had gotten there, how it had been kept and progressed south to Hasmal's alienage where it ended up bestowed on a child whose mother would have nearly nothing to do with her husband--but what he suggests), it opens up a whole avenue of the past he'd never even considered.
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[personal profile] faithlikeaseed 2019-03-21 09:15 am (UTC)(link)
It's a measure of how comfortable he's gotten with someone--how much he thinks he owes someone--that Myr will slow down enough to think in said person's presence, quiet and pensive instead of bubbling over with the effervescence of an overactive mind. Not as if he doesn't do well enough on reasoning on his feet, but this--this, all of it--it required something quieter. It's a measure of trust in Sorrel's good sense that he hasn't put all those thoughts away for somewhere quieter and private, instead leaving the whole messy process of coming to grips with new information out where it can be seen.

But trust and a willingness to listen doesn't mean he'll let everything get by him unopposed. He rouses at Sorrel's words with the sharpness of a man called to defend his beloved; right or wrong, the Chantry's his--

(He remembers saying something very like what Sorrel had to Simon once, not long after they first met, in the very same tone. Hearing it echoed back like this throws wide the chasm between him and anything else outside his dissolved Circle he could belong to. A city elf Circle mage with a shem templar for a lover--not human enough for the faith he'd give his life for, with too many ties to the Chantry's world to give it all up and follow an aravel; not enough of a Loyalist for any non-mage to wholly trust his intentions and too much of one for most mages to think he had their backs.

It's probably self-pitying to dwell like that on what the Maker had given him to work with: But there it was.)

"You needn't tell me that. I'd not be out here if I believed the tidy lie." He takes a breath to cool his tone, holds it for a count of three, breathes out. "And Orlais can get fucked for all they've done and haven't put right, but that isn't all the Chantry is. She knew who and what the Liberator was for two Ages before docking his ears; they still sing about his dying charge every week, whether or not they admit to themselves who the People that followed him were. It can be put back."
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[personal profile] faithlikeaseed 2019-03-24 06:45 am (UTC)(link)
That's one way to forestall an argument.

Not, mind, that Myr would have gone into it with the same vigor he'd had that day he'd first shown up in Sorrel's office; he knows better than that now. But he couldn't just leave things lie with his conscience pricked the way it's been--perhaps it's a good thing, then, when that outraged shriek reaches their clearing and Sorrel takes off with, "Grab the meat!"

Given all they went through to get it, Myr's not even going to question the strangeness of that command; he simply obeys, dumping the contents of his pack so he can bundle the rabbit into it. A gesture extinguishes the glyphs fueling the fire--more to reclaim the mana than any forethought about what an untended fire might do to the forest--and then Myr's off after Sorrel at a sprint, hilt of his spirit blade already in-hand.
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[personal profile] faithlikeaseed 2019-03-29 06:35 am (UTC)(link)
As ever, when he's thrown into the moment, Myr finds it easier to act than temporize.

Just killing them isn't an option; as much as the grim scene strikes him as sacrilege to be redressed with fire and violence, these stupid shem'len don't know what they've brought to bay. Either with the halla or the elves arguing for her-- Oh, the waver of Mendy's bow doesn't go unnoticed, and it firms Myr's resolve to end this quickly.

He speaks a word under his breath--not an answer to Sorrel, not directly--and then another, gesturing with his free hand and the hilt of his spirit blade as he pulls barriers from the Fade to wrap around the two of them...and the downed halla. The shimmer of them warps the air like the heat of high summer transplanted to this wintery afternoon: Not quite so threatening as igniting the spirit blade but an obvious message all the same: You're outmatched.

Only with the terms thus on the table does he address the hunters: "He means it, serahs. If you'd not test our patience, best let her go." Maker, let them not be so stupid they'd throw themselves at a brace of mages for pride, he thinks, half-praying, grasping for something else to convince them with. The faint scent of cooked rabbit from his pack suggests itself; he slides it off his shoulder, careful to keep both hands in view.

"And we'll swap our take for yours. No fine pelt but rabbit's better eating than rat." Eyes hard as amber glass--look willing the hunters to do the smart thing--he fixes his gaze on Piker and holds the pack out.

Take it or leave it, gentlemen; the offer won't be open long.
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