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WHO: Alistair or Bastien or Kostos & Other People
WHAT: A Rather Blustery Day. Or rainy. Or both.
WHEN: Mid to late Drakonis
WHERE: Kirkwall & Surroundings
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i. alistair in the project office with the dog statues

Alistair hasn't yet made good on his threats to decorate the Project Sashamiri office with dog paraphernalia. But he has brought in a half-dozen little wooden mabari carvings, reminiscent of the statues littered across Ferelden, to hide in drawers or behind frequently-used books or on top of the door frame, to see if it's possible to make Enchanter Julius crack.

It's possible to catch him at it, standing up on his toes to try to put one on top of a shelf where it can stare at Julius while he works. Equally likely to catch him frowning at his desk, though, holding a dagger to candle light and turning it this way and that, or with his chin down on his folded arms to glare at a book that he definitely can't read at that angle.

Regardless, someone will only have to pause in the doorway for him to beckon them closer and say, "You. Come here."

ii. alistair in the mountains with the mud bath

"You'd think the darkspawn would mind the rain," Alistair says, squelching through mud. "Wouldn't you? They spend so much time underground, they should be like the dwarves. Scary sky water, oooh."

It hasn't stopped raining since they left the Gallows--so several hours ago, at this point. But waiting for better weather is only a viable option when better weather seems like it might happen at some point. And the darkspawn, who do not mind the rain, are apparently sneaking in and out of a crevice newly opened by a mudslide in the Vinmarks.

So here they are. Alistair and whoever. He's been dealing with the rain pretty well, himself, despite what it's doing to his hair. But, maybe as comeuppance for teasing dwarvenkind, that's the moment where he loses his footing on a slick incline and splats flat on his back in the mud.

iii. bastien in the courtyard with the crushing sense of futility

If Bastien were telling a story about someone else, he'd have them crack and cry all over somebody, or spend so many days in bed that someone decided they ought to do something, or take some sort of dramatic lifelong vow, or clean out their room and disappear in the middle of the night and never be heard from again.

He comes closest to that last one. He packs a bag. Then he puts it under his bed, leaves it there, and goes about his business, mostly as usual. His smiles are just as quick but a little more muted, the cello sounds from his room become short and irregular and confined to rote scales, he's harder to find, and he lets small talk die small. But he's fine, right up until the point a gust of wind funnels through the Gallows' walls and smacks his armful of letters and notes out of his arms to scatter across the courtyard.

In another mood he'd take it in stride and run to catch them. In this one, he sits down heavy on the stairs and watches a few sweep out of sight down a stone corridor. Maybe they're important. He should probably be more worried about the possibility they'll end up puddles.

iv. bastien by the canal with the naked antivan

The problem with how Bastien works is that so much of it rests on letting people have their way and arranging the scene around them to make it useful. So when he's meant to be charming a wealthy visitor whose inclination is to get utterly smashed and a bit high, because what happens in Kirkwall stays in Kirkwall and can Bastien even imagine how dull life becomes once one is married with children--that's what he does.

Meo Fiesi, not Bastien.

And when he--Meo Fiesi--is then inclined to strip off all of his clothes and jump into a Lowtown canal because he's never been swimming naked, in the rain, on a public street, and apparently that specific combination is a personal dream, that's, you know. Great.

Bastien has called for back-up. Just in case the man starts to drown. Back-up can find him sitting in the drizzle with a pile of Antivan Merchant Clothing beside him, his feet dangling over the dirty canal, while someone in it says, with an Antivan accent, "This one is called the Butterfly!"

v. kostos in a cave with the incomplete deck of cards

A partial list of things Kostos hates and/or is bad at: Being stuck in a small space for a long period of time. The outdoors. People. Cold weather.

So having a sleepover in this cold, shallow mountain cave Northwest of Kirkwall, to monitor the reported potentially-suspicious comings and goings through the mountain pass that forms the shortest route from Nevarra City--he's handling it really well.

For example, the deck he brought along is apparently missing three cards, and he's decided the solution to that is to throw the remaining forty-odd cards off the edge of the cliff and into the distant river below, one at a time, while he silently watches the dark road for any bit of firelight.

vi. kostos in the market with the teddy bears

Mummies probably don't care about stuffed bears--at least not more than the wisps residing in their bodies care about anything novel. But the wisps probably don't care about enormous underground crypt-mansions, either, and they have those. Kostos has already told several imaginary people passing imaginary judgment to fuck off, in his head, while he picks through the contents of a stall in Hightown.

He could have gone to Lowtown. Even if mummies care a little bit about stuffed bears, they certainly don't need them to be newly made and neatly stitched.

It's for his own sake that he's tossing aside the ones with loose button eyes or frayed stitching. He's perfectly aware.

"Please stop touching everything," the seller says when his sifting knocks a few plaidweave tuskets out of their pyramid formation.

Kostos doesn't look up to counter, "Stop selling garbage," which is maybe not the best thing to say to someone you want to give you a good price.

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Athessa happens to be down that corridor, and plucks them off of where they've struck her shins, quite mindlessly, before seeing who they got away from. On her way to him she's able to retrieve roughly half of the lost papers, but Baz is her priority.

If it didn't seem important to undo some of the misfortune that just befell him, she would've ignored the letters completely. She comes to a stop a few steps below his seat upon the stairs and holds the paper out to him.

"Here," she says quietly. It doesn't seem right to try and read him the way he's been training her to read other people, so she just sits down next to him as if they're just loitering together.

He sees her coming in time to rearrange his face—because he can, he could all the time with enough effort and energy—into a full-wattage smile, his posture into something more casually devil-may-care than weighed down. They’re small changes. And they’re only there for a few seconds before, like someone tensing out of reflex and then realizing footsteps in the dark belong to a friend, he slackens back into something less fake.

“My hero,” he says, but he doesn’t swoon onto her shoulder. “You only need a hood and a mask.”

"Like a character from your stories?" Whether they're his stories or just stories he's told doesn't matter; nine times out of ten, when he tells a story it's the first time she's heard it, so he gets the association. She leans her elbows back on the step behind her and tips her head back to look at him.

And all she sees is his face. Perhaps some weariness around the eyes, indicative of nothing much. Who sleeps around here, anyway? Her own eyes bear dark circles, not yet banished by more restful sleep in a shared bed. Athessa's lips quirk in a small smile and she reaches up to smooth his mustache.

"Do you want to hear something sad, bad, or funny?" Take your pick.

Bastien considers the question for a moment, face still under Athessa's hand except for a slight eyebrow raise. Sad might match his mood. Funny might lift it. But—

"Bad," he decides with a little relish, more out of curiosity than anything. He leans forward for a moment to tuck the papers behind him on the steps, so they can't blow away again, and leans back to match her with an expectant look.

She purses her lips, conjuring up the first bad thing that comes to mind:

"Wet socks."

His smile stretches out, wide and flat and toothless. “Épouvantable.”

Could he leave her? He’s left people he’s known longer. Lyes and Eliya held onto his arms and legs, that last day he was home, and he pulled free of them like it was nothing.

“Tell me something else,” he says, looking up at the sky instead. It might rain soon, or it might only keep threatening to for hours. “You left Kirkwall before, non? What brought you back?”

"Corr--oh," She was expecting to name another bad thing. "Uh, a job, why?"

He shrugs, smile still faintly present. “Curiosity. Wondering if you missed it while you were gone, or if coming back felt like falling into a pit you could not climb out of—does anyone actually like the weather here?”

"The fish, maybe." That's the answer to the last question, but as to the first--

"I don't think I would've come back if I hadn't been tasked to. And then I didn't have the money to go back to Rivain, and I signed on with the Inquisition..." He knows the rest, her dismissive hand gesture says. "I'd probably miss it more if I left now, but it wouldn't be the weather or the city itself I actually missed."

"The people?" Rhetorical. Even if it isn't what she means. "Who would you miss most? Other than me."

Yes of course the people. And the sense of purpose, and belonging.

"Other than you? Well, I'll have to think about that," She frowns. Who else is there? "Derrica, Colin, Matty, Laura, Sister Sara, Deimos, Byerly--speaking of, I got a case of that wine you mentioned, the one with the funny label, and left it in his office." Not that Bastien had told her to get a whole case of the stuff, but just getting him a bottle didn't seem like enough thanks for all he did for her.

By that token, Bastien will have a whole vineyard coming his way, eventually.

"I'd miss feeling like part of a family again."

Bastien smiles, smiles wider, and then smiles only faintly, when she finishes. He’s still looking at the sky, but the stairs are beginning to hurt his elbows, so he sits up straight again.

“Keep talking,” he says, with the rising intonation that makes it a request—he’s grasping around for a story, much more clumsily than he’s proud of. Something outside his head to follow away from himself. “Tell me about Derrica or—Matthias? I don’t know them very well.”

"Well, Matty is like a little brother. He's still in that place where being laughed at is the worst thing that could ever happen to him, but he'd be the first person to defend you if someone else said anything bad about you. He'd probably fist-fight a dragon to protect his friends.

"And Derrica...is wonderful, she's smart and kind and surprisingly strong. Not like, strong as in she's been through a lot, but physically. She could beat most of us in arm wrestling, I think," An exaggeration, but only a little one. Derrica did manage to carry Athessa back to her room after the drinking contest, after all.

"She knows the stakes of everything but still manages to have dreams, ya know? She's...hopeful. Inspiring. Reminds me of someone I used to know."

Except Athessa had been the one to ask Ciara to run away, and Ciara broke her heart by treating it like a joke. Then, in the mountains, Derrica joked about running away, and in so doing peeled back a bit of the sticking plaster holding that heart together. It's something Athessa is going to have to face, eventually, but for now, the ache she feels brings something else to the surface.

"Hey, Bas, do you wanna...walk somewhere? I have something I wanna say that I think...I dunno I just think it'll be easier if I don't have to sit for it."

Bastien hadn't zoned out, exactly, while she described Matthias and Derrica, but he had settled into passivity—just listening, putting her words to their faces, imagining what Matthias might look like when teased or Derrica when talking about her hopes—and it takes him a moment to rouse himself out of it when it ends.

But after that moment he nods. Walking itself doesn't have much appeal, and the whole process of picking himself up off the stairs and rolling the damp collection of letters up into something he can tuck under his arm makes him feel less nimble than he likes. He does it without complaint, though, and offers his arm to Athessa with a good-humored eyebrow raise once he's upright.

She takes his arm, and once they're on the move she steers them in whatever direction seems likely to take them away from other people. It's for both of their sake, even if she doesn't expect Bastien to bare his soul. What she wants to tell him she doesn't necessarily want to share with anyone else.

"You told me once," Of course she'd much rather not be sober for this, but oh well. The walking will have to suffice. "You said that I didn't have to be strong for you, and then I went on pretending to be alright. You don't have to pretend you haven't noticed. It's just..." Here she laughs, soft and breathy and without much mirth to it. Rueful, if anything. "...Well I don't like being vulnerable. But it's not fair to you to act like I can't tell you something for fear that you'd...I dunno. Hurt me or think less of me or something like that, and on top of that I owe you something of an explanation for that whole Devigny business."

"You don't owe me anything, Fauvette," Bastien says, because it sounds too serious—and he isn't in the mood, anyway—to puff up and say yes, what in the Maker's name was that about. "But of course I would not refuse."

"I do," Athessa insists. "For helping me so much, for being a good friend, I owe you a lot more than just an explanation."

She holds a bit tighter to his arm, some small comfort as she gets her words in order before they come tumbling out. It's a bit out of order, starting with why she and Colin had been staking out the estate in the first place, how they wanted to find a way to stop him from hurting anyone else, which takes the story back about thirteen years to Athessa experiencing first-hand how Devigny treats unfortunate young women.

Neither of them need the details recounted, Athessa because she lived them and Bastien because...well. It's enough to simply say what happened and not as much about how; the lasting effects quite clear. Her reticence to be in front of a crowd, and most of the reason she's been numbing herself with haze (with the rest being that blood magic stuff), and why when Byerly mentioned Devigny's name in the mess hall, the whole world stopped moving.

And somehow, for the first time since this history got dredged up, she doesn't cry recounting it.

Bastien doesn't cry, either. He could—a little for her sake, a little for his, the way sometimes he reads a book or listens to music he knows will make him cry because he wants a good excuse. But it's not a story. It's her life. So he takes a steadying breath instead, because he was already half unsteady before, and slips his arm free of hers so he can put it around her shoulders and pull her close enough to his side that he can press his mouth to the top of her curly head.

This is where she stops their ambling, because to keep walking would just be too awkward. She looks up at his dark eyes and the well-hidden sadness behind them, and cups his face in her hands.

"You don't have to tell me anything, but I want you to know that you don't have to be strong for me, either." Athessa hugs him then, burying her face in his shoulder and giving him a squeeze. He smells like tobacco, parchment, ink, and soap and it all melds together into something uniquely comforting, even under such a dreary gray sky.

Having his words thrown back at him—or gently tossed back to him, really—is more satisfying than irritating. Using his own words, and being vulnerable first, and not pushing too hard. Bastien a little proud of her. If it were insincere it would be well done.

"I am strong for myself," he says. But he loops his arms over her shoulders, instead of stiffening or shrugging away, and rocks side to side on his feet to wobble her along into a lazy dance in place. "Someone I used to be close to died. That's—" all, he was going to say, because people die all the time, and who hasn't lost someone to something in these last few years.

But it sits wrong. He doesn't say it.

"I'm so sorry, Baz," Him not saying it says enough, at least as far as Athessa is concerned. She tightens her hold on him briefly before relinquishing it entirely.

In this moment, she feels like she understands Bastien more than he ever intended her to, which is at once a source of pride and sadness. As if they need any more of the latter between the two of them.

"I know a good place to break shit, if that'd help. Or we could just find somewhere quiet and wallow a while. Whichever."

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Bastien considers those, looking skyward with a musing head wobble. His appetite for real destruction is fairly limited—he tipped over a bookshelf once when he was younger, out of frustration with his own slow progress, and he still remembers with crystal clarity how silly and ashamed he felt looking at the wreckage.

So wallowing. Maybe.

He dips sideways to grasp her hand and tug her in a new direction, toward the entrance to the fortress, where the walls eventually give way to a stretch of sea and cliffs and mountains. It's still all in greyscale—the black cliffs topped with a grey city, the grey sky and the grey waves—but the wind is more consistent and bracing, and now and then there's a wave large enough to cause some spray. Not quiet, exactly, either, but around the corner from where the ferry comes and goes, no one will bother them.

On the way, he says, "You can fly with the griffons, ouais?"

"I can," she agrees, glancing at him. "Most of them know me well enough but a few are still a bit shy."

The question presents another, one that has different implications.

Why not just leave? Take a griffon and fly somewhere warm, away from the City of Chains, away from the Waking Sea, away from the rain and bitter cold. It wouldn't have to be forever, but would it be so bad if it was?

"Do you want to fly somewhere?"

"When the weather is better," Bastien says—not because he wouldn't go now, but because he wouldn't ask her to. And he points toward the top of the tallest of the cliffy mountains rising up across the harbor from the city, a dark grey shape against the lighter grey haze—not because he wouldn't go farther, but because he wouldn't ask her to.

"Why there?" If he asked, she'd go, and it wouldn't matter when or how far. All that would matter is that he asked.

But of all places, she didn't expect the mountains. Mountains seem as likely as the desert, or Tevinter. Maybe it's just a process of elimination? Not Orlais, clearly, not Tevinter, the desert, Nevarra...

iii. because i apparently can't resist sadness

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