WHO: Adrasteia, Erik, others WHAT: a catch-all with starters in the comments; will match format WHEN: early Bloomingtide WHERE: The Gallows, Kirkwall NOTES: Erik comes with a built-in language warning
It speaks volumes, actually, that people come from worlds with common troubles. Upsetting volumes, but volumes nonetheless.
"I probably wasn't too much removed from your age when I Joined," she considers aloud. "While not everyone survives the Joining, everyone who makes the attempt is a Warden nonetheless. Hopefully it won't be necessary either way."
Ellie gives a shrug, a little awkward -- accepting sympathy for the state of her world has never been something she's good at. It's just reality, like the fact that she's never had parents. If you don't have something in the first place there's nothing to feel like you're missing out on. It's just what it is.
"Hopefully," she agrees, then pauses.
"... uh, if this is too personal, you can tell me to fuck off," she says awkwardly. "But is that why you joined? Because you got bit?"
"It's not," Adrasteia says by way of promise but them it's difficult to get the rest of the words out. Her fingers work free tufts of down and loose feathers across the griffon's wings. "Too personal, I mean. I don't tend to mind personal questions, in general.
I joined because my husband was dead, and I hoped I could do some good in Thedas if I didn't immediately follow him. Dying slowly of the Blight was not something I was prepared to do."
Ellie's face does something she doesn't realize it does when Adrasteia relays her husband's loss. She loses animation, and it brings a familiar, quiet bottomlessness to her eyes that doesn't leave her entirely present. Empathetic, yes. Grief, yes. But more than anything it's a recognition of pain.
Loss is universal, cavernous.
"How long's it been?" Ellie asks, skipping over the usual condolences, the sympathetic noises that people make, the ones she never quite knows how to take. She rubs her thumb next to Artichoke's beak, letting him nip softly at her fingers. He's gentle, like he knows.
She's seen that expression before when some memory causes a person to leave their body and live in the past instead, as Adrasteia understands it within herself; she's never seen it in a mirror, mind, but she knows the look in the eyes all the same.
Wardens see a lot of suffering especially if they do the work.
"It'll be eleven years, in Kingsway." Long enough to miss him, and for that missing to hurt a little less. Long enough to live another life, and wonder what it means to move on when so little is promised in the first place. "I think I've done alright, all things considered."
"... looks like it," Ellie says softly, and means it. Every story of loss is different, and every person reacts to it differently. Some, better than others. Ellie digs her fingers into the deep, soft feathering of Artichoke's neck and rubs, raking up more down and making him trill happily.
"This seems like a good place for it," she says, without thinking.
"Doing all right, I mean."
Or getting to that point.
It hasn't escaped her notice that the souls here are almost universally wounded ones, seeking direction. Maybe this is the right place for her to be.
"I hope so," comes the soft answer, and another smile, fleeting but no less true, crosses her face. "I've only been here since the new year, or thereabouts, but I think Riftwatch has... a lot of potential, to do good for the people here. And elsewhere, in Thedas."
Since Ellie has the 'scratching the griffon until he's content' part of this exercise well in hand, Adrasteia fetches a broom and dustpan to keep the floor clean and her hands busy. "I hope you'll find it to be the same."
It's nice to have it be understood, even if it's not said out loud.
Why d'you think we're here? she'd asked, once upon a time, in a place far beyond the Fade. The answer's never left her.
To do good.
So the wording hits her deeply, because there's no way she knows, but sometimes the universe just shakes out that way. Ellie reaches up to scratch again at Artichoke's withers and shoulder joints, where his wings meet his body, and gives him some good rubs and scratches, almost massaging out the loose down and molting feathers.
"Handsome boy," she murmurs under her breath, because her chest feels too tight to answer Adrasteia right away.
"Guess I'll just have to see, right?" she asks, lifting her face. "Might've fallen ass-first into Thedas but I don't have to stay sitting on it."
"That's the spirit." Adrasteia meets Ellie's gaze evenly, clearly pleased. "And in the meantime, you get to learn how to fly. Not a bad exchange, I think." There's nothing forcing Rifters to remain with Riftwatch, though she's aware there's something about the Anchor Shards that responds poorly to them being too far away from one another over an extended period of time.
Not that any of that bears mentioning in this exact moment.
"Do you know what sort of weapon you lean towards?"
Ellie can't help a smile, a glimpse of her teeth as she digs another treat out of her pocket, holding it flat in her palm like she's feeding a horse, and doesn't wince as Artichoke takes it. He's surprisingly gentle. She strokes his beak.
"Bow and arrows," she answers, right away. "And knives. I'm good at some other stuff too, but Thedas hasn't really gotten around to making some of the stuff I usually work with."
"The only other archer I know of for certain within Riftwatch is named Edgard." Adrasteia gives a little shrug. "But archers are always helpful, and necessary." Like mages they are often in the rear, protecting others but still putting their own lives on the line.
Ellie can't help but smile in response, noting the name -- she hasn't met him yet, but she figures they'll probably be assigned together at some point.
She doesn't figure everyone will be as cool as Adrasteia, but so far, she's gotten lucky.
"So, do you put... saddles on these guys?" she asks, gesturing to Artichoke. "Bridles?" How would a bit even work? Would it be more like a harness? Shit.
I'm making this shit up as I go, also sorry for losing the notif!
"Saddles, yes, but not bridles exactly." Beaks and all that, you see. It's a lot more difficult to force a griffon to turn its head than a horse, for one thing.
Ellie is correct in presuming that there is, at least, a harness; Adrasteia goes and collects all the needed supplies for mounting and riding the griffons, including saddles and harnesses. "The rest is fairly similar to a horse's tack."
"Figures. Do they just... know where we want them to go, or what?"
Ellie's excitement is obvious, but she pays careful attention to how the tack goes on, makes sure the saddle's properly tightened. She handles that, at least, with familiarity.
"... I guess that'll get answered once we're in the air."
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It speaks volumes, actually, that people come from worlds with common troubles. Upsetting volumes, but volumes nonetheless.
"I probably wasn't too much removed from your age when I Joined," she considers aloud. "While not everyone survives the Joining, everyone who makes the attempt is a Warden nonetheless. Hopefully it won't be necessary either way."
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"Hopefully," she agrees, then pauses.
"... uh, if this is too personal, you can tell me to fuck off," she says awkwardly. "But is that why you joined? Because you got bit?"
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I joined because my husband was dead, and I hoped I could do some good in Thedas if I didn't immediately follow him. Dying slowly of the Blight was not something I was prepared to do."
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Loss is universal, cavernous.
"How long's it been?" Ellie asks, skipping over the usual condolences, the sympathetic noises that people make, the ones she never quite knows how to take. She rubs her thumb next to Artichoke's beak, letting him nip softly at her fingers. He's gentle, like he knows.
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Wardens see a lot of suffering especially if they do the work.
"It'll be eleven years, in Kingsway." Long enough to miss him, and for that missing to hurt a little less. Long enough to live another life, and wonder what it means to move on when so little is promised in the first place. "I think I've done alright, all things considered."
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"This seems like a good place for it," she says, without thinking.
"Doing all right, I mean."
Or getting to that point.
It hasn't escaped her notice that the souls here are almost universally wounded ones, seeking direction. Maybe this is the right place for her to be.
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Since Ellie has the 'scratching the griffon until he's content' part of this exercise well in hand, Adrasteia fetches a broom and dustpan to keep the floor clean and her hands busy. "I hope you'll find it to be the same."
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Why d'you think we're here? she'd asked, once upon a time, in a place far beyond the Fade. The answer's never left her.
To do good.
So the wording hits her deeply, because there's no way she knows, but sometimes the universe just shakes out that way. Ellie reaches up to scratch again at Artichoke's withers and shoulder joints, where his wings meet his body, and gives him some good rubs and scratches, almost massaging out the loose down and molting feathers.
"Handsome boy," she murmurs under her breath, because her chest feels too tight to answer Adrasteia right away.
"Guess I'll just have to see, right?" she asks, lifting her face. "Might've fallen ass-first into Thedas but I don't have to stay sitting on it."
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Not that any of that bears mentioning in this exact moment.
"Do you know what sort of weapon you lean towards?"
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Ellie can't help a smile, a glimpse of her teeth as she digs another treat out of her pocket, holding it flat in her palm like she's feeding a horse, and doesn't wince as Artichoke takes it. He's surprisingly gentle. She strokes his beak.
"Bow and arrows," she answers, right away. "And knives. I'm good at some other stuff too, but Thedas hasn't really gotten around to making some of the stuff I usually work with."
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"Besides, knives are always a good idea." A wink.
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She doesn't figure everyone will be as cool as Adrasteia, but so far, she's gotten lucky.
"So, do you put... saddles on these guys?" she asks, gesturing to Artichoke. "Bridles?" How would a bit even work? Would it be more like a harness? Shit.
I'm making this shit up as I go, also sorry for losing the notif!
Ellie is correct in presuming that there is, at least, a harness; Adrasteia goes and collects all the needed supplies for mounting and riding the griffons, including saddles and harnesses. "The rest is fairly similar to a horse's tack."
it's the dw life rn
Ellie's excitement is obvious, but she pays careful attention to how the tack goes on, makes sure the saddle's properly tightened. She handles that, at least, with familiarity.
"... I guess that'll get answered once we're in the air."