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WHO: Strange and Stranger
WHAT: Congratulations, Stephen! You’re the lucky recipient of a Tranquil in need of medical assistance.
WHEN: After Gwen & Cedric drop Herian off, potentially with time jumps if we feel inspired.
WHERE: Infirmary
NOTES: Tranquility (lack of agency/emotion), discussion of the Rite/torture, medical stuff/needing to deal with a gross injury.

As the doctor sees to his other patient, Herian sits. Franklin has calmed since they arrived at the Infirmary, the small dog having kept a careful eye on Cedric and growled any time his steps carried him too close to the Tranquil.

It was a new behaviour, not observed save for when she was subject to the Rite. The past while he has been leaning against her leg, occasionally moving to rest his front paws and muzzle on her lap. She is scratching behind his ears whenever the doctor returns, speaking to him softly. Petting him does nothing to soothe or comfort her, but she knows it settles him, and that his care is her responsibility.

On that count, the corgi’s state is better than Herian’s. Her skin is grimy, boots worn and ill-fitting, so it is perhaps apparent that her proper boots were taken at some point before her arrival. More stark than all that is the Sunburst brand burned into her forehead. Not clean and centred, but angled and partly wrapping about her right temple. Jagged, almost, indicative of struggle. The burns have been left untreated for at least a couple of weeks, by the looks of things, the skin livid with infection.

Herian looks to the doctor when he arrives. “What information would best assist you?”

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The doctor operates with a clipped efficiency that reminds her acquaintances long departed. Old teachers, past healers. Enchanter LeBlanc had counted amongst both. There is no sense of nostalgia or longing to accompany the memory, only a shroud that keeps her separate from truly experiencing it.

She carries out the task mutely, carefully, although she pauses when Franklin starts. His eyes are bleary and tired, but he shuffles after the doctor with a quiet “woof” of reprimand. He’d been using that foot as a butt brace, and without it his snooze was interrupted. With a little huff, he circled next to Herian a few times before dropping down and resting his head on her foot.

“Are there other questions I can answer for you?”

Herian resumes her efforts, endeavouring to focus on the pain to honour the request. “And I have a request to make, if I may.”

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“Not as of yet. Others in leadership will have followup questions about the people who did this to you, I suspect. But if I think of anything else, I’ll come and ask, or send you a— oh, we’ll have to get you outfitted with a crystal again,” Strange muses, practically thinking out loud to himself.

More practicalities, logistics, tidy gears turning tidily onwards, even as he returns with a jar of healing ointment: moisturising and cooling, good for soothing and numbing that raw throbbing burn.

“And of course. What is it?”

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"The abruptness of my arrival and my condition are like to cause distress to the Provost. The nature of our history and her care for others makes that news like to leave her with a sense of obligation and lay an undue burden on her."

Herian does not fidget. Does not twist the cloth between her fingers as concern manifests, or clench her jaw to subdue a flare of emotion. She only sits, posture very correct, expression impassive.

"That could wrest her focus from where her duties demand it, or sap her energy, through no fault of her own. My past self did not return to Riftwatch, for the very concern that even without intention of setting expectations upon her, I would be bringing all the complexity and turmoil of my presence to the one relative safe-haven for Rifters that exists in Thedas. She would be trapped hence, while I, who was free to go where I wished, could have made a choice more considerate. Now that choice does not exist. I must be here, as must she."

Is she explaining this well? Perhaps not.

"Prioritising her well-being is not logical for its own sake, for all that I am aware of our past significance to one another. However, she is a skilled researcher and her ability to perform her duties for Riftwatch must be deemed a priority, especially given her posting as Provost. I would like to compose a letter to relieve her of any sense of obligation she might have, in the wake of receiving the news."

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There’s explaining it or explaining it well, and then there’s Stephen Strange’s innate kneejerk godawful reaction to just recoil from all of this intimate knowledge. A kind of panicked voice in the back of his head: Must we? Surely there’s someone better-qualified to hear this.

But it also all seems sensible-ish on the surface. Plainly justified, rationalised, and he doesn’t know enough of the situation to identify all the cracks; he can’t find specific fault in it. He’d stayed away from Christine, too, when it had been too painful or simply too complicated to face her.

He remembers the way Cosima had described it: We still couldn’t put the pieces back together.

And he could leave this entire topic be, but if he’s going to be playing glorified mailman, he finds himself asking anyway: “Relieve her from the obligation of… what, seeing you? Helping you? Mounting a revenge mission in your honour to get back at the people who did this?”

Even with his professional mask in place, even with these dire subjects on the table, there’s a perpetual faint sardonic edge to the man, the ghost of dry humour in his voice.

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While amusement is beyond her, she can recognise humour, the potential intentions that can lie behind it. Insult, releasing tension, to overcome desperation in dire circumstances. She is silent a few moments as she considers it.

"Do you say that to make mockery, or to relieve your discomfort with my candor?"

The question she can answer momentarily, but this has her attention, presently.

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For all that her voice is neutral, it still feels like walking facefirst into a brick wall. Given complete free rein to react, he’d probably want to scrub at his face and let loose some kind of audible eurrhrghh at having been read so brutally effectively, despite everything.

But those doors are still closed, just enough, that he masters his expression. So the corner of his mouth twitches. Self-aware. Called-out. Might as well be honest; it’s better than Herian thinking he’s making fun of her.

“The latter,” Strange admits, after giving himself a single beat. Forcing himself to be painfully plain in return: “But also, in general. I’ve a bad habit of deflecting most situations with humour. Got me in trouble with my sorcery teachers for a while. I’d do the same thing discussing this or, I don’t know, the breakfast selection in the kitchens. I’m sorry. It’s not meant to give offense, and it doesn’t mean I’m not taking you seriously.”

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"You cannot offend me. Self-reflection is rarely an easy or enjoyable prospect, so I thank you for the transparency, even so."

She might have exhaled a rueful laugh, in times past.

"Like the Provost, you are captive in proximity." It seems unlikely he'd run from the room when there was a patient still in the midst of receiving treatment.

"I asked to know that I could amend my behaviour, not to prompt apology. If explanations concerning past circumstance and emotions put you ill at ease, then I will see to it you are spared. I have no wish to cause discomfort, only to support Riftwatch's functionality and avoid misunderstanding."

Misunderstandings lead to such messy situations, after all. "As for the Provost, she should not feel obligated to spend time, energy or emotion on my presence. She is a person of great compassion and kindness. There is no logic in her suffering for the fate of a person who cannot feel, and who held herself in the forge of negative emotions when she could. If a letter might reassure her of that, it is my duty to make the attempt."

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He wonders, distantly, if Tranquil can love, or if that’s burned out of them too. Presumably they can’t. Presumably Herian would say no, but he imagines (or likes to imagine) he can still hear a vestige of it in the way she describes Cosima; the esteem still present, if not the same as whatever fondness it’d once been.

An imprint left behind, a footprint in the sand, a fading echo.

“I do find it necessary to point out that being ill-at-ease or uncomfortable is sometimes useful or necessary,” Strange says. “Cauterising a wound. Or scraping out that dead flesh, a few minutes ago. Pushing someone out of their comfort zone. I was tremendously uncomfortable the first time I discovered the existence of magic.”

Which was a tame way of describing his brain splitting at the seams and his entire worldview collapsing, propelled through dimensions and planes simply because his teacher wanted to teach him a lesson, knock him down a few pegs.

“But— I do see what you’re getting at. Regardless. If you want to write her a letter, I’ll make sure to drop it off for you. She spends a lot of her time in the Provost’s offices now, or sometimes out in the courtyard.”

Information offered up on a platter. Y’know, just in case Herian does want to eventually seek her out. Or avoid her. Either way.

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“You speak it true. When first I attended the Inquisition, before the Kirkwall branch was formed and splintered into Riftwatch, I held the Dalish with bitter contempt. As much discomfort as their proximity brought, so too did it force me to reconsider my prejudices.”

It would be bittersweet, in other circumstances. To remember Dahlasanor and her kin, especially. That forest that grew in the bones of the old Chantry, the desperate effort to serve as a bridge of diplomacy between the Chantry and a group she had no love for, the reduction of that grove to ember and ash. The fragile understanding that eventually took root, but the forest was gutted by fire, Sina’s life by the shard, and Herian’s connection to any of it by the brand. No regret for her ill temper and distrust of the Dalish, nor mourning of a young life lost.

At least Strange may not know all the context, just how disconnected it all is, when she goes on;

“Thank you. I lack the requisite stealth for a discrete delivery at the best of times.” And with her feet sore and body patched up, it is not the best of times. No need to alarm Cosima with antics.

“Have you parchment to hand that I might commandeer?”

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It’s—

almost funny in a bleak sort of way, and he half-laughs, a small choked noise that he bites down at the last moment. I lack the requisite stealth for a discrete delivery at the best of times. “I don’t know you well, Knight-Enchanter Amsel, but I’m starting to get that impression,” Strange says mildly. He reaches up, finishes gently smoothing over the thin layer of ointment on her forehead, closes the jar again and wipes off his hands.

Scrounging is done quick enough, rustling around at the physician’s desk at the back, before he returns with parchment, quill, ink, a patient’s breakfast-in-bed tray she can use as a writing surface.

“Parchment supplies have been low, we’ve been reusing paper when we can,” he explains, “but these are fresh for you. I imagine it’s best to have this particular letter not scribbled on the back of miss Baudin’s inventory sheet.”

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Herian looks at the paper overlong.
How can one be uncertain when the feeling of uncertainty does not accompany it? Un-persuaded might be more accurate. The analysis of her own state may come to consume too much energy if she allows herself to focus on it so.

"That is a reflection of your worry. Logically, this does not merit such a use of resources. The message will be no less jarring for being on fresh paper."

But by the same token, Cosima is the Provost. Respect is due, and the intention of it is to make the matter less painful. Adding a different type of grit does not mean that it will not sabotage efforts to reduce friction.

"I will trust your intuition in this." A moment passes, and then—

"Is there a place I can bathe and acquire clean garments? Navigating based on past familiarity seems most like to lack efficacy." Given the destruction, and so on. "Using my present wardrobe would be counter to protecting the cleanliness of the wounds."

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“Ah, yes, of course. The communal baths in the towers are out of commission, but there’s temporary bathing facilities outside. And as for clean clothing—”

More rustling, more scrounging through cabinets, before he deposits a folded pile of fabric on the end of Herian’s bed: some slippers and loose flowing button-up robes. Not the paper-thin hospital gowns of modern New York, more like a light dressing-gown, but it’s as close to the concept as he could get here.

Please put on some clothes.

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"Thank you."

All matters seen to, she commences her tasks.

Alas, poor Doctor, the letter writing is prioritised over either the bathing or getting dressed. It would be silly to put a clean robe on when she is in such a state, and any time prior to the writing of the letter is time that she might pass the Provost's path before its delivery.

Franklin snores.