CLOSED: Though we share this humble path, alone

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WHO: Nathaniel, Inessa, Ciri
WHAT: Baby Wardens acting out, Dad Warden tries to talk with them
WHEN: After returning from Ansburg
WHERE: The Gallows, Nathaniel's office
NOTES: Will update with any warnings.

You are directed to come to my office at the time appointed below. You are to wear your undress uniform and it is to be marginally clean.

--Nathaniel Howe

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[circleprodigy]

Inessa nods as she stares at her hands, unable to deny that truth. She wouldn't think to protest against it either, as it had been on her mind while with Ciri. "I understand, and it's not behavior I intend to see repeated. I could not leave her, though, not as she was." Drunk and angry could have lead to so many disastrous outcomes on its own. If anything had happened to Ciri, she would have never forgiven herself.

But she looks up again, her tone firmer, resolved. "It won't happen again. I won't say that such circumstances will ever be easy for us, but we'll be more mindful of our actions in the future."

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"That...is not at all what I'm saying, Inessa." Nathaniel looks grim. "I'm saying you should never have been in that position in the first place. Neither should we. And it is up to your leaders to take responsibility for putting you in that position. We know you and Ciri are not cowards. We know you listen to orders under normal circumstances. You should never have had to choose between your wellbeing and hers, and the disproportionately minor duty you were ordered to carry out. That is not a Warden's obligation. Next time, what I need you to do is speak up, not suffer in silence. We need to know if a mission is the wrong fit for you in a way we haven't foreseen. It would have been better for us to have left you behind than for us to leave you to carry each other home when one of you is already drunk. Do you see what I am saying?"

[circleprodigy]

Well, this isn't quite what she had imagined. Inessa was used to the demands of superiors, of constantly putting others before herself whether it be as a Circle mage or Grey Warden. (And as a prodigy, she had been expected to be more than capable.) Any failings on her part were hers alone to deal with, or so she had always believed. That her support network could be wider than a couple of fellow low-ranking Wardens is not a natural conclusion for her to make, and it's probably telling in her silence as she processes the notion.

"I think so, yes. Ciri and I truly believed it would be no issue, at the time; we had not foreseen it either, which was a mistake." Whether it be pride or denial, Inessa truly believed it would be fine, until it wasn't. Perhaps this is the wake-up call they needed, to be more mindful of their limits. Taking in a breath, she nods. "I'll do my best to be aware of such issues beforehand, and relate them as need be."

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"You don't need to foresee anything," Nathaniel says gently. "And I'm glad we are learning about this. Just be mindful. It does not mean things we ask you to do will always be easy or comfortable, if they ever are. It means we must work together to ensure you are the best Warden you can be. And you are a good one."