player plot | when my time comes around, pt. 5

[cozen]

WHO: Everyone!
WHAT: Everything's fine and we're going to have feelings about it.
WHEN: August 15 9:49
WHERE: Primarily the Gallows! But potentially anywhere.
NOTES: We made it! You are all free of my tyrannical plot grasp! There is a final OOC post with some notes + space for plotting here.

This is a timeline where, some mild chaos aside, things for the last month have carried on as normal. Riftwatch hasn't lost anyone at all. There were no funerals. The work continued. The late afternoon of August 15 may find people at their desks, in the midst of meetings or debriefs, in the library, in the sparring yard. Or maybe afield, seeing to errands or meetings or missions somewhere else in Thedas. Maybe, if they are particularly unlucky, they are deep in conversation with an ally or embroiled in combat with an enemy agent at the precise moment when the magical connection between two realities closes and the diverging timelines snap together into one existence.

At that moment, everyone forgets what it is they were just doing. Instead they remember what they might have been doing in the world where a third of Riftwatch's number was lost, despite their hands suddenly occupied with the normal business of handling pens or swords or books they don't recall picking up.

For the always-living, it may feel as though they have been magically transported somewhere new mid-thought. For the dead—the formerly dead, the might-have-been dead—it will feel as though they have just woken up. Perhaps they'll have a vague sense of a dream they now can't recall, in between their last conscious moment amid the blood and screams in Granitefell and awakening just now in a quieter world, or perhaps they'll have a sense of nothing at all.

For a few hours, the worse world will be the only one anyone can remember. Over time, memories of the other world—the only one that really exists now—will filter in, competitive with other memories in a way that might require everyone to double or triple check whether they wrote a letter or completed a mission in that timeline or this one. But the memories of death and dying will never fade into anything less real.

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[bouchonne]

Oh, Maker. Why is there such emotion in the boy's voice? Byerly looks, for a moment, openly stricken, openly helpless, before he steels himself as best he can. (His best is not very good. His expression is all right, but there's a little tremble in his hand, palpable to Bastien.)

"You're - doing all right then, lad?" By asks, his voice gruff and awkward.

[altusimperius]

In public, Bastien says, and it rankles appropriately; Benedict's eyeroll is practically audible, but he keeps any commentary to himself. Oh, so it is going to be like that.

"Yes, better-- better than ever," he replies to Byerly, getting back on track, "I'm coming back to the Gallows now." You don't need to know where he was, or what he was doing. It's fine.

[cozen]

Behind Bastien’s smoothly unconcerned expression, his teeth grit—but hopefully this doesn’t mean they’ll wind up on the same ferry trip. But a moment later that feels like such a stupid thing to worry about. By’s hand is trembling; Bastien squeezes it for a moment before letting it go, tentatively trusting Benedict and Byerly not to ruin all his efforts to keep from drawing too much attention.

[bouchonne]

Byerly does not notice the tension between the two of them. He hardly notices his own feet at the moment. Every last ounce of concentration is spent on keeping his voice light.

“Then perhaps we’ll see you on the ferry,” he says, echoing Bastien’s worry. “Coming in from Kirkwall proper, I presume. Spending time shopping, perhaps?”

[altusimperius]

"I am," Benedict replies just as lightly, choosing not to answer the question-- the less he dwells on that incident, the better.

"If not, I'll see you back at the office." A pause. "How are you, um... feeling?" Josias was decidedly Not Great.

[cozen]

Slightly too well-mannered to cut in and answer on Byerly’s behalf, Bastien keeps his mouth shut. Which is just as well, because at that moment they pass Franz and Percy going up to Hightown, and the facial expressions and gestures and quickly murmured words required to convey without stopping or slowing down at all that he and Byerly are in a hurry, and Byerly is in some minor way injured or ill but it’s nothing to worry about, and they’ll talk later—all of that requires most of his focus, for a few seconds, as well as a carefree little smile that stays stuck on his face for several steps down after the men have gone on their way. Just in case.

[bouchonne]

Franz and Percy. Maker. Seeing them is so utterly surreal. They belong to another life entirely. Thank the Maker that Bastien is so quick-witted and engages them so perfectly; By wouldn’t be capable of doing anything more than what he does (smiling and giving a little what-can-you-do wave).

“Quite well,” says Byerly into the crystal, “quite well indeed,” and then, “twisted my ankle a bit, is all. Let’s - talk later? Perhaps? Back at the office. On the ferry. Somewhere.”

[altusimperius]

"Right," spoken pleasantly enough, "whichever happens first."

[cozen]

“The office,” Bastien says—like Benedict shouldn’t wait for them. Like they won’t wait for him. Like he can, by snippy pronouncement, prevent them arriving close enough in time to wind up on the boat together.

But of course he can’t. Of course when they approach the docks, Benedict’s standing there, and the ferryman is–excruciatingly—only halfway through his journey back from dropping someone else off at the Gallows

Brother Two-Toes has been discarded, since Benedict’s interruption. Perhaps forever. Bastien’s been quiet, occasionally nudging By with his shoulder or pointing toward interesting things on the street. A man in an alley trying to hide the fact that he’s missing his pants, whispering urgently up toward the window for someone to drop them for him; seagulls harassing a rat. Normal things that are not dying or coming back from death.

He doesn’t point out Benedict. He only sighs a little, relatively subtly, and loosens the bend of his supporting arm in case By would like to pull free of it in the course of this reunion.

[bouchonne]

Benedict. He doesn't look quite so strangely normal as Fritz and Percy, but - still strange. Still normal. In some way, By feels incredulous that the boy is here - that he's not in Gwaren, where Byerly had told him to flee if things went poorly. He thinks for a moment that he's glad that it means that things didn't go poorly, except that's not what that means at all; perhaps he was halfway to Ferelden when things reset themselves. Perhaps.

Did I do enough for you? Were you safe?

By doesn't go to Benedict. Instead, he gestures the boy over to join him and Bastien. Because there's no chance for a joyous reunion until they get their stories straight and agree upon -

"The ferryman." It's a moment of quiet they have, here on the dock, but they'll soon be joined by someone else. "Do we think he...knows?" Or do they need to keep up the facade of normalcy on the boat back.

[altusimperius]

Benedict is looking out at the water in a moment of rare contemplative serenity, and remains thus until he hears the approach of shuffling footsteps and looks behind him in time to see Byerly's gesture. He spares a glance for Bastien, but is reserved toward him, chin tipped up and gaze untrusting. Look who stuck around.
His demeanor becomes far friendlier as he approaches, relief writ on his face at the sight of Byerly along with something else, a far more complex emotion that he doesn't have a name for. It's impossible. This is impossible.

[cozen]

To Byerly's question, Bastien gives his head a little shake that means I don't know, eyes trained on the ferryman out in the water as he graduates from beetle-sized to mouse-sized in the distance. Is that the steady rowing of a man whose world has been rocked, or the steady rowing of a man who is determinedly doing something that makes sense when nothing else does?

"He is used to us being strange," he says under his breath to By, ignoring Benedict's approach altogether for the time being. "Maybe no details?"

He leans sideways a few degrees, pressing his shoulder against Byerly's. Bolstering, he hopes—and grateful, for the concern about maintaining secrecy and appearances. For Byerly powering through whatever he must be feeling to be concerned about it.

And now he acknowledges Benedict, to the extent a placid, bland glance counts as acknowledgment.

[bouchonne]

No details. All right. He can do that. Just - just a little further, and then he can collapse. A little further, a single boat ride, and then a few steps to be out of sight of the water, and then he can - do whatever it is he needs to do to stop himself from feeling like he's drowning.

"Artemaeus," Byerly says. His eyes fall on Benedict's face, and then flick away at once. That strange expression will break him if he lingers on it too long. None of that, he decides. "Good to see you well. Your shopping was - " He stops in the midst of extending his hand in greeting. "Ah, your parcels...?"

[altusimperius]

By the time Benedict is close enough to them both that they can get a proper whiff, it's undoubtedly clear what he's actually been up to (at least in the form of smoke on his clothes and drink on his breath), but he had the decency-- and vanity-- to clean himself up at least in appearance, with his hair combed sleek and his clothing tidy and unrumpled.
But he really doesn't have any parcels, and his look turns slightly guilty when Byerly notices: in a self-effacing way, of course, since there's no reason for anyone to come chasing after him about his dalliances, and he has no reason to apologize for them.

"Didn't, ah, find what I was looking for," he lamely replies, giving a toss of his head as if to rid himself of the uncomfortable conversation, paying no more mind to Bastien than if he were Byerly's silent valet.
"You look well."

[cozen]

Byerly’s silent valet gives Benedict a brief once-over, cataloging visual details to accompany the aromatic ones, and—valet-like, you know—hinges the arm By has been holding onto around to rest a hand on his back. Silently.

[bouchonne]

"Ah," says Byerly, and even disoriented and distracted he can recognize the universal look of yes, I've been fucking. If circumstances were different, Byerly might tease him about it; things being what they are...

He lets out a breath. "Yes, I - suppose I look better than the..." He trails off, having overestimated his ability to say something lighthearted about the whole thing without falling into hysterical laughter or sobs. Fortunately, he stops himself before his control goes, and looks over at Bastien a little helplessly.

"Would you two be able to keep up the chatter with the ferryman? I might need to feign a headache or - something. I am sorry."

[altusimperius]

With his brow creasing slightly at Byerly's weakness, Benedict's first instinct is to look away immediately, to stop perceiving him out of some combination of kindness and discomfort. But he nods, murmuring a quiet "of course," as he glances once again to Bastien.

[cozen]

Bastien is not glancing back. He’s looking at Byerly, searching his face with an expression a little too sharp-eyed to be purely sympathy. A little calculating. Not in a nefarious way. What he is calculating is only: “You could pretend to be queasy? Lean over the edge.”

That will hide his face and excuse both silence and any number of noises or shaky breaths.

But he tries to soften the Bard-ness of it all by offering a fretful little smile, too, and, “I’ll rub your back.”

While Benedict talks to the ferryman, sure. Or falls overboard into the harbor. Bastien doesn’t care.

[bouchonne]

"Ah," says Byerly, and nods. An elegant solution, especially since one of Byerly's great skills in life is pretending to be queasy. It was, in fact, one of his great assets as a spy. Two people, chatting in a bar in the late afternoon, would often ignore sloppy, hungover Byerly Rutyer retching in a corner - harmless fellow.

So By stoops over, the posture looking particularly ghastly given his leanness and height, and puts his hands on his knees. As the ferry pulls up, he lets out a miserable-sounding belch (because of course Byerly Rutyer can belch on command), and visibly needs Bastien's help to get on board.

"Bad oysters, I think," he explains, and then leans over the side of the boat, turning his face towards the water, letting his expression go unguarded once it's hidden. Maker willing, Benedict will successfully distract the ferryman with some idle chatter.

[altusimperius]

Sympathetic though he may be, the belch is enough to bring out Benedict's Disgusted Face, which still somewhat remains by the time they're boarding. He understands that he (AND Bastien) were asked to keep the ferryman distracted, but it occurs to him now that he's never spoken to this man in his life, and the ferryman looks equally confused when Benedict suddenly pays attention to him.

"So," Benedict says after an awkward pause, very much in the manner of someone unaccustomed to acknowledging The Help, "how's... ferrying."

[cozen]

True to his word, Bastien settles down beside Byerly and rubs up and down his back as if to try to soothe his disagreeable stomach.

He is not so focused on that task that he can’t raise his eyebrows at Benedict’s astounding small talk skills. He catches the ferryman’s eye—noblemen, right?—but the ferryman is good enough natured to be suppressing a bewildered smile, not a salty snarl, when he rises to the task of answering that question.

“Very ferryful,” he says. “More ferryful than yesterday. If the trend continues I’ll be at maximum ferryness by the end of the week—but more likely there will be a lull. That’s usually how it goes. Crests and troughs, just like the waves. ”

So Bastien looks charmed, because that’s what he would do if Byerly had never died and time had never been fractured, before returning to worrying (to a reasonable degree, for all appearances, the way one ought to worry about someone who’s had bad oysters) toward the back of Byerly’s head.

[bouchonne]

Even for Byerly, that penetrates the fog hanging about him - he takes a look momentarily over his shoulder. How's ferrying? He furrows his brows at Benedict, wondering for a moment if the boy has completely forgotten how to talk to a human being.

[altusimperius]

Do service workers count as human beings?
Benedict shrugs incredulously back at Byerly, not sure if it's what he wanted or not when the ferryman starts answering in the manner that he does. Could be worse, he could have to carry the whole conversation himself.

"No more turtles, I hope," he remarks, and immediately takes on a look known well to those close to him: I shouldn't have fucking said that, is written all over the tension in his face.

[cozen]

Bastien dedicates half a second to wondering whether Benedict is being passive-aggressively awful on purpose to get out of being responsible for this conversation, or if he really is so hopeless.

During that half a second, the ferryman’s bemused smile is faltering.

“There won’t be anymore turtles,” Bastien says without looking away from Byerly. “Jonah—“ is not a worrisome name for a ferryman in a world without the Bible, thank you “—how’s your uncle? Feeling better?”

[bouchonne]

"Ah, no," says the honest Jonah, "still gouty as ever. But he likes to complain, so, I suppose he's happy in his own way."

And then, perhaps as some subtle revenge against Benedict's faux pas, he nods to the young man, saying, "That's what rich living will get you, you know."