[Closed] This isn't even my final form

[justice_is_blond]

WHO: Anders and close CR
WHAT: Detlef makes his last appearance for some goodbyes in case, Anders gives some warnings, and basically he tries to prepare.
WHEN: Around this time, a little backdated for the ride, but generally 24th-ish
WHERE: Ride back from EDL and in Skyhold
NOTES: Anders.

[ooc: This is various starters for Detlef's end and Anders warning some friends and admitting things to another. If you'd like a starter, ping me at Nadat on plurk and I'll put one together!]

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[pinprick]

"Not trying to gain sympathy. To be honest, I still don't always know how much of it was real. Father said he loved me, but I've every reason to believe he just wanted me on his side in the fight with Mother. And Mother was...I don't really know. She used to leave me behind when taking Delilah and Thomas somewhere. Confession, for example. When she came home, she would tell me that I told her I didn't want to go. After a while of that, she told me the Maker doesn't want wicked boys who won't go to confession."

Nathaniel speaks reminiscently, as if pulling these memories together takes a great deal of concentration. Afterward, he looks tired and irritated.

"I think I never saw how bad my father was because...never mind. There's no point in speculating. A great many children had it worse than I did. I had Adria, for a time. She loved me, and Delilah. But she was sent to work at the Denerim house when Thomas was too young to remember her."

[justice_is_blond]

Doesn't want sympathy, and then goes on to mention Adria. Anders had seen her end, and he's quiet again for a time. They're quite the pair.

"It's hard to see what's going on when you're up close. And why would you take a step back if things are seemingly working?" It's... a part of why some caring people didn't object to Circles. They don't see a problem, so why would they look closer? It's ignorant and selfish, but it's at least a partial excuse.

Or it is to Anders. Justice finds no justification for choosing to ignore what's going on.

"The awareness that requires is not common. I don't think you're at fault for not seeing it." It's also not that common anymore to feel a complete divide in opinion between himself and Justice. Then again, the spirit had never seemed truly fond of Nathaniel, or vice-versa. The sensation of disagreement is both welcome and unwelcome, and far too complicated for Anders to want to delve into right now.

"But speculation is pointless. The what-ifs, the whys... They tend to fall short." Even if he's spent a great deal of time on them himself.

[pinprick]

"And the Howes especially." Nathaniel flashes a half-smile, a glint in one eye. He had to do it.